stalking.
For the first time today, I realised why people like stalking facebook. It used to be a mystery to me because I think the whole site is so meaningless and boring.
Just now I was stalking on facebook because Yinbao was asking me about Jiayu, Miu's boyfriend, because she recalled our tweets about him during the E-Awards. So I stalked Miu's fb in hope of finding a picture of them together to show how old he looks.
Point it, I decided to visit Miu's blog about that to check out her updates and her latest entry is quite emo. It made me think if the people she's talking about who I think it is. Ever since her 21st birthday party at Timbre, I've been suspecting that the friendship had broken and I just can't seem to find any evidence about it. Then again, I wasn't stalking hard enough. It's really weird for them to not show up at her party because they were once so close, so chummy with each other. And not a single one of them turned up. She had a few people in that clique and it's not a 2 person relationship. Normally when a friendship turns sour, it's not only between 2 but it'll be between 1 and the rest of the group. I really wondered what happened. I don't think going to Shanghai is the cause of it. Stalking fb also reflected their close friendship as there were lots of pictures of them, but there wasn't any recently. What had gone wrong? What has seriously gone wrong?
I really wonder if the fault lies with Miu or the rest? I would of course think it lies with the other party because I'm biased and have been there, done that. If it's the same problem that happened to me, I would think it's her fault for not changing at all over the years. It's been 3 years since everything fell out. And every time I think about it, my heart dies a little. It's miraculous how fast can a friendship turn sour, and how fast can it change our lives so much.
This is probably the first time I really lost a friend, and it's not via a lack of communication but by choice.
When will I recover from this? When will I forget about this? When will the day come when I can smile and say it's all a mistake and time will rewind back to the happier days? That was a tough period for me and it won't stop haunting me. Every time I see her face, it comes back.
If only I'm strong enough to let it all go.
Just now I was stalking on facebook because Yinbao was asking me about Jiayu, Miu's boyfriend, because she recalled our tweets about him during the E-Awards. So I stalked Miu's fb in hope of finding a picture of them together to show how old he looks.
Point it, I decided to visit Miu's blog about that to check out her updates and her latest entry is quite emo. It made me think if the people she's talking about who I think it is. Ever since her 21st birthday party at Timbre, I've been suspecting that the friendship had broken and I just can't seem to find any evidence about it. Then again, I wasn't stalking hard enough. It's really weird for them to not show up at her party because they were once so close, so chummy with each other. And not a single one of them turned up. She had a few people in that clique and it's not a 2 person relationship. Normally when a friendship turns sour, it's not only between 2 but it'll be between 1 and the rest of the group. I really wondered what happened. I don't think going to Shanghai is the cause of it. Stalking fb also reflected their close friendship as there were lots of pictures of them, but there wasn't any recently. What had gone wrong? What has seriously gone wrong?
I really wonder if the fault lies with Miu or the rest? I would of course think it lies with the other party because I'm biased and have been there, done that. If it's the same problem that happened to me, I would think it's her fault for not changing at all over the years. It's been 3 years since everything fell out. And every time I think about it, my heart dies a little. It's miraculous how fast can a friendship turn sour, and how fast can it change our lives so much.
This is probably the first time I really lost a friend, and it's not via a lack of communication but by choice.
When will I recover from this? When will I forget about this? When will the day come when I can smile and say it's all a mistake and time will rewind back to the happier days? That was a tough period for me and it won't stop haunting me. Every time I see her face, it comes back.
If only I'm strong enough to let it all go.