dont have to close ur eyes, ....
ah.. now i know what aimee feels like. first hand. today makes it officially one week i haven't seen Johnathan. we make plans, things come up. but it's mostly my mom. she's so damn strict and i hate it. he was supposed to come over today, but she got all gay and said no. she was mad at my + my brother about something last night.. cause he came into my room and started making noise.. but you know the oldest sibling always get's blamed for everything! today i swept downstairs.. vacuumed all the rugs, did a huge load of laundry, hung the clothes on the line, folded them.. so she was impressed now i have this idea to act really depressed until she asks me whats wrong and i'll tell her i miss johnathan.. it's working. :]
today at dinner i didn't touch anything i just kinda played with my food, and looked down. but my mom didn't say anything. but i know she was looking at me. then my stepdad goes "maleni.. you okay?" and i was like "yea..." and he was like "are you mad?" and i was like "..no" and he said "you're soo quiet, you're never like this" and i just kinda shrugged.. and i could tell my mom was looking up. I'M GOING TO MAKE HER FEEL SOOOO BAD. mwahaha.
going to ask if i can sleep over channy's. haven't slept over there in a while. haha. that used to be like an every weekend routine. her, beth, and angie are going to warped tour tomorrow. have fun ladies :) i love you!! if i sleep over friday.. she told me that she won't be mad if i sneak out for a while to see johnathan . mad love to my best friend. i hear this boy mike likes her. and he makes her feel awesome. so i like him already !! :) she definitely deserves it. i love you channy.
so today i guess my mom is shutting the internet + cable off as like, punishment? haha idk. but that means i won't be able to talk to johnathan too much. see i might not have seen him for a week. but we've made every attempt to talk on everything the phone, internet everything. i love him. <3 :)
well i'm off to do god knows what.. probably go downstairs, get a drink.. and make my mom feel bad. i'm such an actress !!
i wanna stand with you on a mountain
i wanna bathe with you in the sea, i
wanna lay like this forever,until the sky
falls down on me '
i love you johnathan dearden <33
today at dinner i didn't touch anything i just kinda played with my food, and looked down. but my mom didn't say anything. but i know she was looking at me. then my stepdad goes "maleni.. you okay?" and i was like "yea..." and he was like "are you mad?" and i was like "..no" and he said "you're soo quiet, you're never like this" and i just kinda shrugged.. and i could tell my mom was looking up. I'M GOING TO MAKE HER FEEL SOOOO BAD. mwahaha.
going to ask if i can sleep over channy's. haven't slept over there in a while. haha. that used to be like an every weekend routine. her, beth, and angie are going to warped tour tomorrow. have fun ladies :) i love you!! if i sleep over friday.. she told me that she won't be mad if i sneak out for a while to see johnathan . mad love to my best friend. i hear this boy mike likes her. and he makes her feel awesome. so i like him already !! :) she definitely deserves it. i love you channy.
so today i guess my mom is shutting the internet + cable off as like, punishment? haha idk. but that means i won't be able to talk to johnathan too much. see i might not have seen him for a week. but we've made every attempt to talk on everything the phone, internet everything. i love him. <3 :)
well i'm off to do god knows what.. probably go downstairs, get a drink.. and make my mom feel bad. i'm such an actress !!
i wanna stand with you on a mountain
i wanna bathe with you in the sea, i
wanna lay like this forever,until the sky
falls down on me '
i love you johnathan dearden <33