The wine softens and suddenly my happiness crashes into your brick wall
Apparently your lj is no more.
So you won't even read this.
Unless, of course, your curiosity brings you back to explore my thoughts.
How convenient.
How one-sided.
Probably for the best.
So I guess thank yous are in order.
It makes sense.
Maybe Amanda is right.
Maybe I am clingy.
Fuck, nobody's perfect.
Maybe it's wrong of me to expect back the same amount I put out.
I should think more like Masha.
If I expect nothing, I will never be disappointed.
I don't expect anything from you.
I don't want anything from you.
Repeat.
Repeat.
It all seems so simple.
Then why am I so angry?
But you're on to me, and all over me.
Silly me for thinking my naive optimism gave us strength.
I'm tired of accepting sexuality as a substitute for love.
Of all things, why angry?
So you won't even read this.
Unless, of course, your curiosity brings you back to explore my thoughts.
How convenient.
How one-sided.
Probably for the best.
So I guess thank yous are in order.
It makes sense.
Maybe Amanda is right.
Maybe I am clingy.
Fuck, nobody's perfect.
Maybe it's wrong of me to expect back the same amount I put out.
I should think more like Masha.
If I expect nothing, I will never be disappointed.
I don't expect anything from you.
I don't want anything from you.
Repeat.
Repeat.
It all seems so simple.
Then why am I so angry?
But you're on to me, and all over me.
Silly me for thinking my naive optimism gave us strength.
I'm tired of accepting sexuality as a substitute for love.
Of all things, why angry?