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todays been good.. got another call from kristine rustleeeeeeeee the lady whos incharge of regis and stuff she said both stores need help and even though im still in school they want to interview me and talk and stuff she said i could start watchign their training videos and shadow and what not and jsut get more inolved with regis so thats fun lol if i can id liek to work at the centera regis just cuz heathers over there and it hink there will be alot mor ebuisness thent he fo co one.. duno guess ill have to wait and see right? right but thats the good news of the day :)
havent had any bad news yet so thats always a plus..
ive realised from all the shit thats gone down in this last year... me loosing my lisence and jobs and everything.. ive realised how much my parnets really do care for me.. they never had to bring me to school or work or do anything for me they never had to support me when no one else would belive me they never had to do anything that ever had to deal with me but they have and i love them so much and appricaite them so much for everythin they do for me i cant honestly say what id do if i was them.. and had a daughter like me... i hoenstly sit and think about how much they deal with between me and my sister and duno how they do it... i lvo emy parents and im so shocked as what i dont know about them and the one thing that scares me the most and not getting to know them b4 its too late.. i love them with all my heart and am blessed every day for having the parents that i do have... i owe them the world
ive realised how selfish suicide can be and how stupid sitting there thinking you shoudl die is.. obviously i shoudl of realised that forever and a day ago but u know these things dont click quite so well here.. but for ppl liek steve irwin who die with a loving family and dedicated to change the world - its environment for ppl to change a prospective on an animal.. that man had a life.. me? yeah im dealing with this drama and i feel i should of been the one to go rather then him.. what a waste u know? but i guess its also a sign.. a huge slap int eh face saying ashley shut the fuck up u just need to find ur nitche and live ur life like he did u know.. u have a loving family and u will again late ron in life.. u jsut gotta let things be u know... its been an adventure let me tell u..
talked to moon for a bit.. hes got a funny way of showing he cares.. when he talks to me he just seems like everything i do is a screw up and it jsut comes out wrong i know he means well but its jsut hard cuz i feel like im getting verbally beat up u know.. i cant explain it but lately ive jsut felt like everyones peicing me together trying to label me saying im a theif.. a trick ass hoe.. a drunk.. a liar.... a bitch whatever comes to mind and it really pisses me off cuz those are things im not (aside from a bitch..) i duno why this is bothering me but it is and i knwo i shoudlnt care but i am .. i feel like ppl are telling me how i should live my life too.. like u shoudlnt drink so much... u shouldnt say this or that to them... u need to say this what u said was wrong.. u dont handle things the right way.. i duno but yet again it bothers me and i duno why.. its just been a weird feeling and lately ive been feeling like ive got all these ppl telling me how to run my life and labeling who i am and its jsut so much pressure my heads guna pop...
well it kinda has already
i need some time away from everyone i need some time jsut for myself i need to find myself period.. some soul searching u know? id honestly jsut like a week away from drama from my phone from my computer from school from an ex boss from boys from money from jobs from insecuirties a week away from this hell cuz its hoenstly too much to bare and i dont need to be dealing with it any more
from now on im not guna care - im me .. im ashley.. and if u dont like it turn around
havent had any bad news yet so thats always a plus..
ive realised from all the shit thats gone down in this last year... me loosing my lisence and jobs and everything.. ive realised how much my parnets really do care for me.. they never had to bring me to school or work or do anything for me they never had to support me when no one else would belive me they never had to do anything that ever had to deal with me but they have and i love them so much and appricaite them so much for everythin they do for me i cant honestly say what id do if i was them.. and had a daughter like me... i hoenstly sit and think about how much they deal with between me and my sister and duno how they do it... i lvo emy parents and im so shocked as what i dont know about them and the one thing that scares me the most and not getting to know them b4 its too late.. i love them with all my heart and am blessed every day for having the parents that i do have... i owe them the world
ive realised how selfish suicide can be and how stupid sitting there thinking you shoudl die is.. obviously i shoudl of realised that forever and a day ago but u know these things dont click quite so well here.. but for ppl liek steve irwin who die with a loving family and dedicated to change the world - its environment for ppl to change a prospective on an animal.. that man had a life.. me? yeah im dealing with this drama and i feel i should of been the one to go rather then him.. what a waste u know? but i guess its also a sign.. a huge slap int eh face saying ashley shut the fuck up u just need to find ur nitche and live ur life like he did u know.. u have a loving family and u will again late ron in life.. u jsut gotta let things be u know... its been an adventure let me tell u..
talked to moon for a bit.. hes got a funny way of showing he cares.. when he talks to me he just seems like everything i do is a screw up and it jsut comes out wrong i know he means well but its jsut hard cuz i feel like im getting verbally beat up u know.. i cant explain it but lately ive jsut felt like everyones peicing me together trying to label me saying im a theif.. a trick ass hoe.. a drunk.. a liar.... a bitch whatever comes to mind and it really pisses me off cuz those are things im not (aside from a bitch..) i duno why this is bothering me but it is and i knwo i shoudlnt care but i am .. i feel like ppl are telling me how i should live my life too.. like u shoudlnt drink so much... u shouldnt say this or that to them... u need to say this what u said was wrong.. u dont handle things the right way.. i duno but yet again it bothers me and i duno why.. its just been a weird feeling and lately ive been feeling like ive got all these ppl telling me how to run my life and labeling who i am and its jsut so much pressure my heads guna pop...
well it kinda has already
i need some time away from everyone i need some time jsut for myself i need to find myself period.. some soul searching u know? id honestly jsut like a week away from drama from my phone from my computer from school from an ex boss from boys from money from jobs from insecuirties a week away from this hell cuz its hoenstly too much to bare and i dont need to be dealing with it any more
from now on im not guna care - im me .. im ashley.. and if u dont like it turn around