i go from bad to worse and then back to better
i've reached this point where i have finally just said fuck it and gone for it, and im scared shitless right now. im scared of whats next. im scared of the after effects and whats going to happen, or maybe what isnt. i'm terrified on how this will affect my life for the next month or so. i just dont know. in a way i like not knowing, but i hate walking blind. its thrilling, exciting, adventurous and doesnt require me to even think, but my mind is racing with more thoughts than i can comprehend, so i dont process any of them at all. im so lost right now with my self and who i am and what and who i want to be. im lost with how i wanna carry myself, when to let my guard down and when to take chances. no one could even possibly grasp what im even talking about right now, or atleast thats just the way it seems to me.
some days i wait in the indigo...
...today is that day
some days i wait in the indigo...
...today is that day