Jun 11, 2005 00:08
i just don't want him to know i care so much. actually. i don't want to care at all.
so today was so awesome. flyers game with nicole.
sad = i screwed up my shoulder again. back to the doctors.. tis very painful
sorry paul. try again shall we?
tomorrow will be a blast with everyone. at least thats what i'm hoping for.
i came to a sad conclusion today. i am not that strong.
you see, i need someone to miss. i need someone to hold my hand when times are too tough. i need someone with arms to hold me tight. i need some with ears to listen to my rants on the phone. i wnat someone who speaks sweet nothings. i want to be someones. i want a kiss goodnight. i need someone to drag to chick flicks or protect me from scary movies. i want to have inside jokes with just this someone. i want someone who won't lie & will keep all my secrets. i want someone to drive me out of my mind. i want someone i can stare at. laugh at. laugh at myself with. i want someone who i don't have to pretend to be anyone else but me. i want someone who can make me smile for no reason. i want to look over at the things said and go "awe." i want to be awed. i want to be in love. not a one night stand. i don't want to be used. i need someone who likes me for me. i want someone who i can go "ya. thats him."