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so ... i just dont get it.
it has been .... almost 9 months. and it still gives me chills to see him or read things about him. i think its that whole,
"you dont forget your first 'love' ",
deal ... but it sucks. like tonight me and CV started talking about relationship things, and clearly he came up. and it was just weird reminiscing ... b/c i actually smiled [i dont think i'll ever have a first kiss like that again. haha.] , like it didn't put me in a bad mood like it usually does. so i guess thats good. but im sooooooooo ready for another relationship.
i've DEFINITELY found potential. 1 moreso than the others, but i mean, clearly he's "just not that into" me if he's not calling me. and i really wanted him to come over tonight to drink and hang out but i dont even have his number b/c im a dumbass. haha. i gave him mine but didnt get his.
so now im home, alone, and bored. people are either leaving the tom petty concert to go get drunk, are downtown getting drunk, or at a party getting drunk. but im not sure i feel like going OUT to drink tonight.
so i guess its movie night for this girl ... alone.
<3
it has been .... almost 9 months. and it still gives me chills to see him or read things about him. i think its that whole,
"you dont forget your first 'love' ",
deal ... but it sucks. like tonight me and CV started talking about relationship things, and clearly he came up. and it was just weird reminiscing ... b/c i actually smiled [i dont think i'll ever have a first kiss like that again. haha.] , like it didn't put me in a bad mood like it usually does. so i guess thats good. but im sooooooooo ready for another relationship.
i've DEFINITELY found potential. 1 moreso than the others, but i mean, clearly he's "just not that into" me if he's not calling me. and i really wanted him to come over tonight to drink and hang out but i dont even have his number b/c im a dumbass. haha. i gave him mine but didnt get his.
so now im home, alone, and bored. people are either leaving the tom petty concert to go get drunk, are downtown getting drunk, or at a party getting drunk. but im not sure i feel like going OUT to drink tonight.
so i guess its movie night for this girl ... alone.
<3