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I don't feel good at the moment and this sucks because I have a lot to do tomorrow and I think I know what it is doing it, gr.
I have plans for tomorrow... Concert at the Elgin Theater and then a Cotail Date after and sleep over so I can drink and don't have to worry about the gettoness of where I live. I also have to wake early (7:15) and not work for, it's to drive Zab to school, and then at 2:15 drive Robb to school and get Zab. Then get ready to be out no later then 6:30pm for the night out.
I don't need this in my life. I have a GREAT week ahead of me that I'm very much looking forward to, especially this weekend. Great company, drinking, dancing, traveling, getting lost, art, colors and much laughter tomorrow and for the weekend to come and then the weekend after and possibly next Tuesday and Wednesday I'm off, maybe out of my own town... It's two weeks of great fun and then probably a month of just hard ass work and one weekend off to see Kate and Val.
Ugh, I don't know anymore guys. I'm really getting at my witz end on this lj user id and wondering on changing everything over somewhere else. I feel really bad for you guys, some more then others like Don and Kate and Val, they've seen me change a million folds over the last what, 8 + years and it's not far to have others have to change where to view my new stuff. This was one of the times when I thought I found myself once and for all, not 100% but a lot more then I had ever found myself.
Over the last little bit being in Toronto I realised I was wrong to withhold what I want the most in life before I settle down a lot. I grew up really fast and acepted it. I had what I wanted in life, but experiencing the fun side of life with it, it being ok to stay up really late like I usually do and then sleep weekends and not feel obligated to get up other then for work. I never asked or demanded to go out and never expected it, but now I find it convenient to take up every option and offer I get to go out or travel and such within my limit of being able to afford it. For once in life I have the ONE full time job but I'm so far away from people I care about and can't visit when I want to. My sister is very busy with school and I do what I can to help her out where her bf can't and I don't mind. I'm just lost now what to do to keep everyone informed and not have to worry, I need to get rid of that worry. I've done my share of appologizing and to no evail, it was pointless, now I don't know.
I'm going to do one final wait and see and then take action I guess from what ever happens. In the mean time I am taking care of my website, that I've decided is going to be moved and the address seldome given out other then really close friends for a while until it's finished. The other one will stay up, I'm just going to edit some of it slowly. I'm working on something I've never really done before but I'm sure it's doable, or at least in my programming mind it is and it will be awsome if it is. I'm probably going to make Kate and Don my geany-pigs, hope you guys are up for it, luv you guys :D
*sigh* I'm going to love tomorrow regardless being sick, or well just not so 100% right now. I do hear you Scott and Kate but I just, I'm stubborn and Kate, dragging me isn't important right now, work is for you. I will go on my own time but I've done good so far, I'm doing good, I promise! It's just a bump, that's all. I promise guys if it gets worse I WILL GO... But it's been good for a while, it's got to be for a while more too, it's got to be lol. And if I need someone to go I'll just deal with it as it gets here but... but... SHHH you'll need more of an army to get me to go! HA
Now on for the procrastination... Radyah cleaned the fridge for me :D yaye. And she cleaned the rest of the appartment before her bf got here, even better cause it was mostly her stuff around here... Now I have my room to tackle, well the rest of it LOL and laundry... umm... laundry... yup... we'll see lol but probably Wednesday after I get home like ummm... late morning or afternoon lol. Wow, I was suppose to clean the weekend that just passed wasn't I? LOL hee. Well night night, it's nearly 2am so I'm off to listen to toons and snooze till I take Zab in.
Kate, I'll try and get your book finished off, or at least one of them and off to you soon :D
~~hugs~~ cause they just rock :D xo
I have plans for tomorrow... Concert at the Elgin Theater and then a Cotail Date after and sleep over so I can drink and don't have to worry about the gettoness of where I live. I also have to wake early (7:15) and not work for, it's to drive Zab to school, and then at 2:15 drive Robb to school and get Zab. Then get ready to be out no later then 6:30pm for the night out.
I don't need this in my life. I have a GREAT week ahead of me that I'm very much looking forward to, especially this weekend. Great company, drinking, dancing, traveling, getting lost, art, colors and much laughter tomorrow and for the weekend to come and then the weekend after and possibly next Tuesday and Wednesday I'm off, maybe out of my own town... It's two weeks of great fun and then probably a month of just hard ass work and one weekend off to see Kate and Val.
Ugh, I don't know anymore guys. I'm really getting at my witz end on this lj user id and wondering on changing everything over somewhere else. I feel really bad for you guys, some more then others like Don and Kate and Val, they've seen me change a million folds over the last what, 8 + years and it's not far to have others have to change where to view my new stuff. This was one of the times when I thought I found myself once and for all, not 100% but a lot more then I had ever found myself.
Over the last little bit being in Toronto I realised I was wrong to withhold what I want the most in life before I settle down a lot. I grew up really fast and acepted it. I had what I wanted in life, but experiencing the fun side of life with it, it being ok to stay up really late like I usually do and then sleep weekends and not feel obligated to get up other then for work. I never asked or demanded to go out and never expected it, but now I find it convenient to take up every option and offer I get to go out or travel and such within my limit of being able to afford it. For once in life I have the ONE full time job but I'm so far away from people I care about and can't visit when I want to. My sister is very busy with school and I do what I can to help her out where her bf can't and I don't mind. I'm just lost now what to do to keep everyone informed and not have to worry, I need to get rid of that worry. I've done my share of appologizing and to no evail, it was pointless, now I don't know.
I'm going to do one final wait and see and then take action I guess from what ever happens. In the mean time I am taking care of my website, that I've decided is going to be moved and the address seldome given out other then really close friends for a while until it's finished. The other one will stay up, I'm just going to edit some of it slowly. I'm working on something I've never really done before but I'm sure it's doable, or at least in my programming mind it is and it will be awsome if it is. I'm probably going to make Kate and Don my geany-pigs, hope you guys are up for it, luv you guys :D
*sigh* I'm going to love tomorrow regardless being sick, or well just not so 100% right now. I do hear you Scott and Kate but I just, I'm stubborn and Kate, dragging me isn't important right now, work is for you. I will go on my own time but I've done good so far, I'm doing good, I promise! It's just a bump, that's all. I promise guys if it gets worse I WILL GO... But it's been good for a while, it's got to be for a while more too, it's got to be lol. And if I need someone to go I'll just deal with it as it gets here but... but... SHHH you'll need more of an army to get me to go! HA
Now on for the procrastination... Radyah cleaned the fridge for me :D yaye. And she cleaned the rest of the appartment before her bf got here, even better cause it was mostly her stuff around here... Now I have my room to tackle, well the rest of it LOL and laundry... umm... laundry... yup... we'll see lol but probably Wednesday after I get home like ummm... late morning or afternoon lol. Wow, I was suppose to clean the weekend that just passed wasn't I? LOL hee. Well night night, it's nearly 2am so I'm off to listen to toons and snooze till I take Zab in.
Kate, I'll try and get your book finished off, or at least one of them and off to you soon :D
~~hugs~~ cause they just rock :D xo