Hello LJ, nice to meet you; again.
I suddenly had the urge to write... to drabble non-sense to be exact.
So many things have changed in the past year. I've regressed, I've grown. I've been constantly fatigued yet somehow satisfied in a number of discrete ways.
I am horribly failing now that I am thinking of words to describe how 'internship' was to me... It was hard, difficult even. Stressful. Physically exhausting. Yet it was fulfilling, in a way only one can feel after a sincere 'thank you' from a patient whose life you know you've truly touched. It was fun, sometimes funny. It could be sad, and even heart-breaking. It was inspiring, and at the end of it all... It was life changing, really.
I wish I was eloquent enough or had enough patience for that matter to put to words how the 12 months of being a physical therapy intern was, how each rotation affected me and what certain experiences meant to me.
Anyhow, I am actually stalling. I tend to be this way when I am faced with yet another huge change.
I HAVE TO STUDY. As in. HARD.
I want to do well in the local boards but I can't seem to push myself to start taking action. Perhaps I don't feel the urgency yet. I still have about 11 weeks to study. Damn, I ONLY have 11 more weeks to study!!! What the hell am I doing. I know I am afraid. But not doing something right now seems a bit easier. Stalling... Stalling...
I am in need of proper beating, I think.
So many things have changed in the past year. I've regressed, I've grown. I've been constantly fatigued yet somehow satisfied in a number of discrete ways.
I am horribly failing now that I am thinking of words to describe how 'internship' was to me... It was hard, difficult even. Stressful. Physically exhausting. Yet it was fulfilling, in a way only one can feel after a sincere 'thank you' from a patient whose life you know you've truly touched. It was fun, sometimes funny. It could be sad, and even heart-breaking. It was inspiring, and at the end of it all... It was life changing, really.
I wish I was eloquent enough or had enough patience for that matter to put to words how the 12 months of being a physical therapy intern was, how each rotation affected me and what certain experiences meant to me.
Anyhow, I am actually stalling. I tend to be this way when I am faced with yet another huge change.
I HAVE TO STUDY. As in. HARD.
I want to do well in the local boards but I can't seem to push myself to start taking action. Perhaps I don't feel the urgency yet. I still have about 11 weeks to study. Damn, I ONLY have 11 more weeks to study!!! What the hell am I doing. I know I am afraid. But not doing something right now seems a bit easier. Stalling... Stalling...
I am in need of proper beating, I think.