Hey there
hiya
I've been away for a long while.
and I'm back because it's been a year since I wrote aqbout my emotional crutch.
I'm okay with it still... and apparently I'm gonna be fine with it for a while.
still I have a problem, it is also a year since I left all my depression/anxiety medication, I'm more or less stable and somewhat happy, but checking my stuff from the last year to this days there was a point when I fixed my hair, made my make up and took a quite happy photo, for no good reason just because I wanted a good photo.
And then months later I faced the truth I was trying to hide. I wanted to have a good one for the simple reason that my family might need a picture for the funeral...
yep, I wasnt evensure why but I wanted to have a decent pic so I could have at least one decent/happy/good pic in my funeral, in case things weren't going the way I wanted.
So that's it, I needed to say/write that in order to let it go, I still like my pic
I've been away for a long while.
and I'm back because it's been a year since I wrote aqbout my emotional crutch.
I'm okay with it still... and apparently I'm gonna be fine with it for a while.
still I have a problem, it is also a year since I left all my depression/anxiety medication, I'm more or less stable and somewhat happy, but checking my stuff from the last year to this days there was a point when I fixed my hair, made my make up and took a quite happy photo, for no good reason just because I wanted a good photo.
And then months later I faced the truth I was trying to hide. I wanted to have a good one for the simple reason that my family might need a picture for the funeral...
yep, I wasnt evensure why but I wanted to have a decent pic so I could have at least one decent/happy/good pic in my funeral, in case things weren't going the way I wanted.
So that's it, I needed to say/write that in order to let it go, I still like my pic