love of my life
Title: Love Of My Life
Rating: gen
Warnings: deathfic, main characters death.
Prompt: sad story a world where a mate cannot survive once his partner is dead
Characters: Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki
Summary: he was his life, he was his world, until he left
A/N2: I tend to think on the weirdest things while preparing for stress, this came to me because I had to tell a man his wife is terminally ill and he said he won't survive without her
***
The letter started with a little phrase "love of my life"
as if it were nothing, and it had a smiley face on it, Jensen was always serious but this little gestures used to make him smile, Jared made him smile, the kid came to change his life forever more.
Love of my life:
By the time you read this I'll be gone, and I want you to know I love you, I enjoyed every second I lived with you.
The moment my parents kicked me out I thought my life was over, if I only knew then that i'll find you, I'd have thanked him.
you are my entire world, you're everything, you taught me to love, you taught me what having someone's love feels like, you're the love of my life.
happy Anniversary Jensen, I'll be back by dinner.
Love
XXX
Jared.
Jensen cried reading this siting on the couch where he woke up naked and smelling like Jared and come, Jared spent an hour rambling about how they met, how he was too distracted to see the chubby cute girl carrying Jensen's coffee, how when he fell he felt like the world was spinning, how the green of Jensen's eyes were like the greenest emerald with the light of a star, his lips the most amazing inviting fruit and his laughter the sound of a choir of angels, Jensen blushed and laughed for days, but couldn't help the love that filled him. How could you not love Jared. "he is" Jensen thought "The love of my life..."
LOVE OF MY LIFE - YOU HURT ME,
YOU BROKEN MY HEART AND NOW YOU LEAVE ME.
Jensen tried to turn in bed but it only caused more pain, a deep ache, so deep it rattled his bones, he whimpered and his ragged breath changed to a faster pace. His heart was beating so fast it worried his doctor.
He felt the same flutter on his heart once in his life before, when he saw those eyes for the first time,
When the tall lanky boy entered the coffee shop and tripped with Peggy, the waitress who was carrying his coffee, the coltish long skinny limbs flying around and landing at his feet, Jared got up in all four and turned those glorious golden green eyes up and that was it... Jensen knew he'd be the one
It took him two more times to get the courage to say hi and it'll be forever if the guy didn't got close and introduced himself "I'm Jared... I'm new in town, and I don't really have friends here..." the kid started randomly speaking before Jensen even asked him to sit down.
Serious Mature, always in control Jensen felt like a 15 yo girl for Jared, everyone started to notice it the same day they sat at the table, when the time of going back to the office came and Jared stayed behind Jensen couldn't stop thinking about his new friend, just turned 22 and was new in town, coming to try and be a great writer, or a teacher, or maybe work on publishing; "I have no idea what I want... I just.... " and Jared's dimples made him forget how to be a normal man. "OMG, I was about to say I just want to be aroud you" he said laughing and hiding his face.
Alona, his right hand when was about numbers entered his office with her hair all over the place, a pen between her teeth and a page with scrunched numbers talking about stock and the last quarter when she just looked at him raised an eye brow and smiled "you met someone..." Jensen blushed, he wasn't used to it, he wasn't used to be in love.
LOVE OF MY LIFE CANT YOU SEE,
BRING IT BACK, BRING IT BACK,
DONT TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME, BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW, WHAT IT MEANS TO ME.
Jared went back to the coffee shop and made fun of Jensen always taking his coffee black "there's more flavors in the world aside of bitter..." said adding cream and a pound of sugar to his own mug "there are this thing..."pointed to the sugar once more "it taste great you know" Jensen smiled when Jared looked at him
"I bet there's something else that tastes great, and is even sweeter" and green eyes darkened, he felt hot and nervous, Jared stuttered for a second before letting out a small chuckle and the second the blush covered his cheeks Jensen bent down and kissed his lips, just slightly, just a brush.
Jared told him later that he was so nervous he thought he'll die, Jared said he thought it was just his crazy idea, that he never hoped Jensen would feel the same, after all he was just a stupid kid and Jensen was fucking perfect.
Jared heard over and over that the only thing perfect about Jensen was his boyfriend.
LOVE OF MY LIFE DONT LEAVE ME,
YOUVE STOLEN MY LOVE, YOU NOW DESERT ME,
The first Christmas together was only a couple months after that, and Jensen was so sure he bought the first present for Jared, and hopefully, they'll be together the rest of their lives, the small jewelry box on his pocket was heavy and burning, he knocked at Jared's door and took him out, they were going ice skating, first time for Jared and he was excited and nervous, but Jared was used to Texas weather not Vancouver's and the amount of snow had him cranky and moody, Jensen gave him his scarf to keep him warm thinking it'll make Jared smile, just to have Jared complaining once more "I would rather stayed inside... it's cold and it's stupid... I don't really care about skating... I'll fall and people will make fun of me..."
"I just wanted to have very good memories of this day"
"Jensen..." Jared rolled his eyes frustrated and "the only memory I'd get from this day is a million falls and a cold..." and moved away leaving Jensen with the box on his hand
Jensen caught up with him frustrated and nervous "could you just... try? just try and have fun today?" Jared was about to cry when he finally faced Jensen "are you okay?" Jared just lowered his face and started sobbing quietly "baby..." Jensen caressed his hair and holding his face made Jared look at him "What is it?"
Jared finally mumbled something Jensen had to really pay attention to understand "Meg called... she was whispering, she wished us a merry Christmas before my mom took the phone from her hand and said you shouldn't call him, he's no longer one of us... and hugn up" Jensen hugged Jared
"well, fuck them!!!" and breathing deep on Jared's neck, the smell of his soon to be mate "you're mine, only mine and I'm yours we don't really need anyone else..." and kept him close to him like that for a long while.
later that night after Jared fell and laughed and skated finally; and Jensen stumbled and fell and broke his pants they sat watching lights and having hot cocoa that Jensen moved in front of him and bent on one knee "Jared..."
Jared gasped and tried to get up "OMG, Jen... what...?"
"Jared... I love you, you're my life, you're my heart, you're my world... please be my mate too?"
LOVE OF MY LIFE CANT YOU SEE,
BRING IT BACK, BRING IT BACK,
DONT TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW - WHAT IT MEANS TO ME.
The sex... The sex was amazing, Jared writhing and screaming under him, the feeling of that glorious skin, the heat, Jared was like a furnace, he was the sexiest thing Jensen had ever been with, he was the reason why he couldn't even think about anyone before him, the reason why even work was good.
But there was something even better, the times when they were just together, not for sex, not caressing or touching, but when Jensen felt the closeness of Jared, when he woke up to a sweaty mate who just came back from jogging, and had fresh coffee for him, When they ended each other sentences, When Jensen dared to sing with his friends and jared was tehre clapping and glowing with pride, when Jared turned in bed at night and sighed peacefully, like he knew he belonged there, right next to Jensen.
Jensen loved when Jared got home from School chatting non stop about his classes and projects, about his plans, one more year and he'll graduate and they could start a real life, he said, but Jensen felt their life was perfect already.
YOU WONT REMEMBER -
WHEN THIS IS BLOWN OVER
AND EVERYTHINGS ALL BY THE WAY -
WHEN I GET OLDER
I WILL BE THERE BY YOUR SIDE TO REMIND YOU HOW I STILL LOVE YOU - STILL LOVE YOU.
Jensen thought they'll be together forever, because; what kind of mate would he be if he kept going after they were done?
Jared heard that and caressed Jensen's hand and kissed his chin "we'll get old together, Jen, we'll be wrinkled and grumpy and we'll have sex all the time instead of working out, you're stuck with me forever"
Jensen smiled "really? would you like to have sex with me when I'm old and smelly and I get hair in weird places?" Jared laughed nodding and kissed him deeply.
"I'd love you even if you start getting ugly and hairy and even more smelly..."
Jensen scoffed "I do not smell.." Jared laughed.
That's what Jared did for him, Jared was the light and the joy he never felt before, the world was brighter, happier, more alive because he had Jared with him.
"we'll creep the lights out of our kids one day... having sex all over the house even as we get older and older..." Jared kissed Jensen once more
"Kids?" asked the older man and Jared settled at his side, half on his lap
"yeah... I'd love to have a little Jen in the house, or a couple kids, or a dozen..."
Jensen caressed his mate and tightened his arms around him "chances are slim... what if-"
Jared laughed "then we'll try and try and try..." and moved to kiss his neck "I just feel like practicing right now" and his hand caressed Jensen's tight moving to his crotch.
BACK - HURRY BACK,
DONT TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME,
Until the stupid accident. Jensen told him the fucking bike was dangerous, he told him it was a bad idea, Jared rolled his eyes and showed him the helmet "I wanted a bike since I was a child and I swear I'll be careful, okay?" and getting closer "don't be mad" said with a smile before kissing Jensen "it makes you look old" and made him laugh and forget his worries.
Jensen was getting ready, when noticed Jared's wallet on the table, and ran after him, took his car, it was only a couple minutes he still could get him before he gets to traffic, he had to, without his ID it would be a mess to get in campus, the second he reached the intersection he knew, he saw the cars, he saw the black print on the asphalt, and he knew, he felt his heart slowing down, he felt his hands getting colder, his entire life getting gloom and pointless, noticed the clock in small blinking green numbers 8:45, and He ran, he remembers he ran screaming his mate's name "Jared..." he can't remember,though, not even now, three days later in a hospital bed tied to a million machines to keep him going; he can't remember how he got there, but the next second he had Jared on his arms "oh My God... baby..."
the keen Jared let out will haunt him to his grave "Jen... it hurts..." and after a second "I'm sorry, you were right, I'm sorry I always acted like a... spoiled..." sighed "Jen..."
Jensen cleaned the blood from his brow, and his mouth, looked to the rest of the broken body and the blood pooling around them "shh, you'll be okay, you're with me, you'll be okay"
Jared closed his eyes "Love of my life...." mumbled
"no, no, no, Jared, no... please, please, don't leave me" Jensen sobbed "please come back, you're my heart, you are my world, you're... please don't take it away from me..."
BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO ME - LOVE OF MY LIFE
LOVE OF MY LIFE...
Jared's last breath was on that street while the few guys around were signing the ambulance to hurry up and Jensen was laying on the floor with his mate on his arms.
The machine let out a creepy flat sound and the nurses rushed in "v-fib" said someone, and the doctor sighed "let him go..." said before turning to close Jensen's eyes, Jensen's last thought was how Jared's lips made a little sound like a sigh of peace when the life left his body. like he knew he belonged there, in Jensen's's arms.
"time of death... 8:45" said the doctor "poor bastard..."
Rating: gen
Warnings: deathfic, main characters death.
Prompt: sad story a world where a mate cannot survive once his partner is dead
Characters: Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki
Summary: he was his life, he was his world, until he left
A/N2: I tend to think on the weirdest things while preparing for stress, this came to me because I had to tell a man his wife is terminally ill and he said he won't survive without her
***
The letter started with a little phrase "love of my life"
as if it were nothing, and it had a smiley face on it, Jensen was always serious but this little gestures used to make him smile, Jared made him smile, the kid came to change his life forever more.
Love of my life:
By the time you read this I'll be gone, and I want you to know I love you, I enjoyed every second I lived with you.
The moment my parents kicked me out I thought my life was over, if I only knew then that i'll find you, I'd have thanked him.
you are my entire world, you're everything, you taught me to love, you taught me what having someone's love feels like, you're the love of my life.
happy Anniversary Jensen, I'll be back by dinner.
Love
XXX
Jared.
Jensen cried reading this siting on the couch where he woke up naked and smelling like Jared and come, Jared spent an hour rambling about how they met, how he was too distracted to see the chubby cute girl carrying Jensen's coffee, how when he fell he felt like the world was spinning, how the green of Jensen's eyes were like the greenest emerald with the light of a star, his lips the most amazing inviting fruit and his laughter the sound of a choir of angels, Jensen blushed and laughed for days, but couldn't help the love that filled him. How could you not love Jared. "he is" Jensen thought "The love of my life..."
LOVE OF MY LIFE - YOU HURT ME,
YOU BROKEN MY HEART AND NOW YOU LEAVE ME.
Jensen tried to turn in bed but it only caused more pain, a deep ache, so deep it rattled his bones, he whimpered and his ragged breath changed to a faster pace. His heart was beating so fast it worried his doctor.
He felt the same flutter on his heart once in his life before, when he saw those eyes for the first time,
When the tall lanky boy entered the coffee shop and tripped with Peggy, the waitress who was carrying his coffee, the coltish long skinny limbs flying around and landing at his feet, Jared got up in all four and turned those glorious golden green eyes up and that was it... Jensen knew he'd be the one
It took him two more times to get the courage to say hi and it'll be forever if the guy didn't got close and introduced himself "I'm Jared... I'm new in town, and I don't really have friends here..." the kid started randomly speaking before Jensen even asked him to sit down.
Serious Mature, always in control Jensen felt like a 15 yo girl for Jared, everyone started to notice it the same day they sat at the table, when the time of going back to the office came and Jared stayed behind Jensen couldn't stop thinking about his new friend, just turned 22 and was new in town, coming to try and be a great writer, or a teacher, or maybe work on publishing; "I have no idea what I want... I just.... " and Jared's dimples made him forget how to be a normal man. "OMG, I was about to say I just want to be aroud you" he said laughing and hiding his face.
Alona, his right hand when was about numbers entered his office with her hair all over the place, a pen between her teeth and a page with scrunched numbers talking about stock and the last quarter when she just looked at him raised an eye brow and smiled "you met someone..." Jensen blushed, he wasn't used to it, he wasn't used to be in love.
LOVE OF MY LIFE CANT YOU SEE,
BRING IT BACK, BRING IT BACK,
DONT TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME, BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW, WHAT IT MEANS TO ME.
Jared went back to the coffee shop and made fun of Jensen always taking his coffee black "there's more flavors in the world aside of bitter..." said adding cream and a pound of sugar to his own mug "there are this thing..."pointed to the sugar once more "it taste great you know" Jensen smiled when Jared looked at him
"I bet there's something else that tastes great, and is even sweeter" and green eyes darkened, he felt hot and nervous, Jared stuttered for a second before letting out a small chuckle and the second the blush covered his cheeks Jensen bent down and kissed his lips, just slightly, just a brush.
Jared told him later that he was so nervous he thought he'll die, Jared said he thought it was just his crazy idea, that he never hoped Jensen would feel the same, after all he was just a stupid kid and Jensen was fucking perfect.
Jared heard over and over that the only thing perfect about Jensen was his boyfriend.
LOVE OF MY LIFE DONT LEAVE ME,
YOUVE STOLEN MY LOVE, YOU NOW DESERT ME,
The first Christmas together was only a couple months after that, and Jensen was so sure he bought the first present for Jared, and hopefully, they'll be together the rest of their lives, the small jewelry box on his pocket was heavy and burning, he knocked at Jared's door and took him out, they were going ice skating, first time for Jared and he was excited and nervous, but Jared was used to Texas weather not Vancouver's and the amount of snow had him cranky and moody, Jensen gave him his scarf to keep him warm thinking it'll make Jared smile, just to have Jared complaining once more "I would rather stayed inside... it's cold and it's stupid... I don't really care about skating... I'll fall and people will make fun of me..."
"I just wanted to have very good memories of this day"
"Jensen..." Jared rolled his eyes frustrated and "the only memory I'd get from this day is a million falls and a cold..." and moved away leaving Jensen with the box on his hand
Jensen caught up with him frustrated and nervous "could you just... try? just try and have fun today?" Jared was about to cry when he finally faced Jensen "are you okay?" Jared just lowered his face and started sobbing quietly "baby..." Jensen caressed his hair and holding his face made Jared look at him "What is it?"
Jared finally mumbled something Jensen had to really pay attention to understand "Meg called... she was whispering, she wished us a merry Christmas before my mom took the phone from her hand and said you shouldn't call him, he's no longer one of us... and hugn up" Jensen hugged Jared
"well, fuck them!!!" and breathing deep on Jared's neck, the smell of his soon to be mate "you're mine, only mine and I'm yours we don't really need anyone else..." and kept him close to him like that for a long while.
later that night after Jared fell and laughed and skated finally; and Jensen stumbled and fell and broke his pants they sat watching lights and having hot cocoa that Jensen moved in front of him and bent on one knee "Jared..."
Jared gasped and tried to get up "OMG, Jen... what...?"
"Jared... I love you, you're my life, you're my heart, you're my world... please be my mate too?"
LOVE OF MY LIFE CANT YOU SEE,
BRING IT BACK, BRING IT BACK,
DONT TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW - WHAT IT MEANS TO ME.
The sex... The sex was amazing, Jared writhing and screaming under him, the feeling of that glorious skin, the heat, Jared was like a furnace, he was the sexiest thing Jensen had ever been with, he was the reason why he couldn't even think about anyone before him, the reason why even work was good.
But there was something even better, the times when they were just together, not for sex, not caressing or touching, but when Jensen felt the closeness of Jared, when he woke up to a sweaty mate who just came back from jogging, and had fresh coffee for him, When they ended each other sentences, When Jensen dared to sing with his friends and jared was tehre clapping and glowing with pride, when Jared turned in bed at night and sighed peacefully, like he knew he belonged there, right next to Jensen.
Jensen loved when Jared got home from School chatting non stop about his classes and projects, about his plans, one more year and he'll graduate and they could start a real life, he said, but Jensen felt their life was perfect already.
YOU WONT REMEMBER -
WHEN THIS IS BLOWN OVER
AND EVERYTHINGS ALL BY THE WAY -
WHEN I GET OLDER
I WILL BE THERE BY YOUR SIDE TO REMIND YOU HOW I STILL LOVE YOU - STILL LOVE YOU.
Jensen thought they'll be together forever, because; what kind of mate would he be if he kept going after they were done?
Jared heard that and caressed Jensen's hand and kissed his chin "we'll get old together, Jen, we'll be wrinkled and grumpy and we'll have sex all the time instead of working out, you're stuck with me forever"
Jensen smiled "really? would you like to have sex with me when I'm old and smelly and I get hair in weird places?" Jared laughed nodding and kissed him deeply.
"I'd love you even if you start getting ugly and hairy and even more smelly..."
Jensen scoffed "I do not smell.." Jared laughed.
That's what Jared did for him, Jared was the light and the joy he never felt before, the world was brighter, happier, more alive because he had Jared with him.
"we'll creep the lights out of our kids one day... having sex all over the house even as we get older and older..." Jared kissed Jensen once more
"Kids?" asked the older man and Jared settled at his side, half on his lap
"yeah... I'd love to have a little Jen in the house, or a couple kids, or a dozen..."
Jensen caressed his mate and tightened his arms around him "chances are slim... what if-"
Jared laughed "then we'll try and try and try..." and moved to kiss his neck "I just feel like practicing right now" and his hand caressed Jensen's tight moving to his crotch.
BACK - HURRY BACK,
DONT TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME,
Until the stupid accident. Jensen told him the fucking bike was dangerous, he told him it was a bad idea, Jared rolled his eyes and showed him the helmet "I wanted a bike since I was a child and I swear I'll be careful, okay?" and getting closer "don't be mad" said with a smile before kissing Jensen "it makes you look old" and made him laugh and forget his worries.
Jensen was getting ready, when noticed Jared's wallet on the table, and ran after him, took his car, it was only a couple minutes he still could get him before he gets to traffic, he had to, without his ID it would be a mess to get in campus, the second he reached the intersection he knew, he saw the cars, he saw the black print on the asphalt, and he knew, he felt his heart slowing down, he felt his hands getting colder, his entire life getting gloom and pointless, noticed the clock in small blinking green numbers 8:45, and He ran, he remembers he ran screaming his mate's name "Jared..." he can't remember,though, not even now, three days later in a hospital bed tied to a million machines to keep him going; he can't remember how he got there, but the next second he had Jared on his arms "oh My God... baby..."
the keen Jared let out will haunt him to his grave "Jen... it hurts..." and after a second "I'm sorry, you were right, I'm sorry I always acted like a... spoiled..." sighed "Jen..."
Jensen cleaned the blood from his brow, and his mouth, looked to the rest of the broken body and the blood pooling around them "shh, you'll be okay, you're with me, you'll be okay"
Jared closed his eyes "Love of my life...." mumbled
"no, no, no, Jared, no... please, please, don't leave me" Jensen sobbed "please come back, you're my heart, you are my world, you're... please don't take it away from me..."
BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO ME - LOVE OF MY LIFE
LOVE OF MY LIFE...
Jared's last breath was on that street while the few guys around were signing the ambulance to hurry up and Jensen was laying on the floor with his mate on his arms.
The machine let out a creepy flat sound and the nurses rushed in "v-fib" said someone, and the doctor sighed "let him go..." said before turning to close Jensen's eyes, Jensen's last thought was how Jared's lips made a little sound like a sigh of peace when the life left his body. like he knew he belonged there, in Jensen's's arms.
"time of death... 8:45" said the doctor "poor bastard..."