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[syty_girl]

things that make me happy:

1. spending time with family
2. school
3. singing
4. sleep

things i wish

1. make more money
2. to get my bills back in order
3. to stop feeling so tired and worn out all the time
4. to go back home
5. go on vacation
6. i could skateboard more

things i need to do

1. pay my bills
2. look for a new job
3. call my mom more often
4. fix my scooter
5. get my motorcycle endorsement

things that make me feel better.

1. sleep
2. shower
3. smoking a cigarette
4. having a beer
5. working on my scooter
6. spending more time with family

i am starting to feel like a pessimist. all my life being an optimist hasn't helped me out much, only delivered dissapointment.
so maybe i should throuw an equal amount of both together, and hope for the best just expect the worst.

don't know why but i have a gut feeling that i will be expecting the worst. i don't know any more.

and if it is the worst. i don't think i have enough strength in me to get up again.

i've had enough

let me stay down, at least i won't have to worry about falling again.