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I get jealous so easily. My "friends"... a lot of them hang out and don't invite me to anything. A lot of them flake out on me to do other things... so I really don't feel included. I have been ignoring them for the past week... and today, they threw me a surprise birthday party...
but fuck man, this doesn't mean anything. why the fuck am i do sad on my fucking birthday?? am i really delusional at this point about my friendships?
why the fuck do i have to be so down?? i mean, just because nobody ever invites me to their hang outs anymore, they play around with their inside jokes, they don't invite me to their events, they forget about me....
am i really their friend?? these people that decided to throw me a small party... if i am your friend, then why do i not feel like one?
do i even make any sense right now? i don't usually rant anymore... but still. fuck fuck fuck.
but fuck man, this doesn't mean anything. why the fuck am i do sad on my fucking birthday?? am i really delusional at this point about my friendships?
why the fuck do i have to be so down?? i mean, just because nobody ever invites me to their hang outs anymore, they play around with their inside jokes, they don't invite me to their events, they forget about me....
am i really their friend?? these people that decided to throw me a small party... if i am your friend, then why do i not feel like one?
do i even make any sense right now? i don't usually rant anymore... but still. fuck fuck fuck.