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Lately I have been feeling the need to have on a facade. I've found it really difficult to truly be myself. I am a pretty sensitive person when it comes to being myself. A lot of people don't accept me for who I am, and many don't really understand the kind of person I really am.
If I have to hear from other people that I am mean and unfriendly, then it does hurt. Because of all the things I want to be, the last is hurting anyone's feelings.
I had a dream last night that erupted from all the built up emotions I've had for the past four weeks here at UCLA. And let me tell you, I didn't think I could shed tears from having a damn dream.
So am I a weak individual, I guess you can say so. Why? Because I have to deal with all of this.
I want to go back to San Leandro.
...I cant even tell people about this because I have to put on this damn front.
If I have to hear from other people that I am mean and unfriendly, then it does hurt. Because of all the things I want to be, the last is hurting anyone's feelings.
I had a dream last night that erupted from all the built up emotions I've had for the past four weeks here at UCLA. And let me tell you, I didn't think I could shed tears from having a damn dream.
So am I a weak individual, I guess you can say so. Why? Because I have to deal with all of this.
I want to go back to San Leandro.
...I cant even tell people about this because I have to put on this damn front.