Hectic Times
I can't believe how hectic it is right now!
We have less than 2 months until the wedding and I'm super excited and I'm super nervous. Not about marrying Jay but that everything is going to turn out how I have in-visioned it. I had the best bridal shower ever thanks to Jade. I knew the date for it but that's it, I didn't know who was coming or where it was. Jade had blind folded me from the 401 and drove around in circles trying to confuse me, and it worked! She had it upstairs at the Mill Restaurant in Cobourg, it was awesome and a lot of fun.
I have my dress and i'm in the middle of alterations. I'm not sure if i'm going to fit down the isle at the church.
So I also found out a couple weeks ago that my dad has cancer. They removed the small tumour and said the surgery went very well but he still has to go through chemo. It's very scary, I know everyone is trying to look on the brighter side and that everything is going to be fine. Me on the other hand am thinking, My Dad is now in his 60's he's getting older, he has previous medical issues, (being blind, low blood pressure etc) and now cancer. I feel guilty because my dad is so far away and that if he does pass on I wouldn't of had the time spent with him that I would of liked. Yes it was his decision to get re-married and to move up north 3 hours, and he doesn't arrange the time to spend with us like he does with his wife's kid. Maybe I'm jealous that these people walk into my dad's life and steal him away from me. Maybe I'm just afraid that my dad is going to die and I don't know how to deal with that.
We have less than 2 months until the wedding and I'm super excited and I'm super nervous. Not about marrying Jay but that everything is going to turn out how I have in-visioned it. I had the best bridal shower ever thanks to Jade. I knew the date for it but that's it, I didn't know who was coming or where it was. Jade had blind folded me from the 401 and drove around in circles trying to confuse me, and it worked! She had it upstairs at the Mill Restaurant in Cobourg, it was awesome and a lot of fun.
I have my dress and i'm in the middle of alterations. I'm not sure if i'm going to fit down the isle at the church.
So I also found out a couple weeks ago that my dad has cancer. They removed the small tumour and said the surgery went very well but he still has to go through chemo. It's very scary, I know everyone is trying to look on the brighter side and that everything is going to be fine. Me on the other hand am thinking, My Dad is now in his 60's he's getting older, he has previous medical issues, (being blind, low blood pressure etc) and now cancer. I feel guilty because my dad is so far away and that if he does pass on I wouldn't of had the time spent with him that I would of liked. Yes it was his decision to get re-married and to move up north 3 hours, and he doesn't arrange the time to spend with us like he does with his wife's kid. Maybe I'm jealous that these people walk into my dad's life and steal him away from me. Maybe I'm just afraid that my dad is going to die and I don't know how to deal with that.