fuck im shattered
had my 1st organic lecture toda,y from next week up to xmas i got 15 hours of lab a week, plus 15/20 hours of lab :s
god im dreading this, ill be able to do it, if i get my mind ready, cause i know can do it if i apply myself, its jsut applying myself is the problem but the £500 bursary cheque should help though
just been tired since i got home, me katherine and some tohers want to set up a wine tasting society, but we mite just do it as a hobby instead
and bored just checking out peoples sites, and dont you jsut hate it when you come across someones site when they talking bout you, with shit, apparantly i wanted to switch unis sto see luby, haha as if i would, despite my difficulties id never consider that, but i swear she just constantly misinterprets me cause she thought i said i loved her, how can i, bloody odd! she a nice girl who quite sexy and extremly beautiful but it kinda obvious i couldnt see her if i bothered so i dont see why she gets so hung up
anyway physical lecture wednesday scared me, and i got my timetable, and i only have one elcture, wednesday AT 9AM!!!!
get up 7 to be home by 10, charming!
listening to staind, not too happy, may jus sleep to it
leave this on overnight gtting all the albums i want
as my mum and sis are away so im home alone until sunday, and nothing or noone to do it with, since noone local other than dave and richard and well they not female
cant have a party either cause house is far too small and messy due to my mums habit of collecting junk and doing car boots
god im so fucked at the moment! YAWNNNNNNNNN
cant believe luby thought that of me, cow, well no she aint evil, she mite jus have a low opinion of me, well no suprise there, i dont have many standards, thats fact and im quite happy admitting it, but i know when theres no chance, and well shes in spain so it kinda obvious there was no chance from begining, i just odnt know she probably was just an escape from my rather dead life at uni and home, just feel like im going nowhere fast with life, but one fings for sure, i dont need nobody be happy, i just want people to accept me for me, i dont mean any harm to anyone, i swear most people are jsut fucknig sheep though, like follow the leader
only person i ever have even almost loved was beth, but thats a no hoper due to facther heart lies with someone else, who known her longer etc etc and im that amazingly witty i have nothing to text anyone i know, ever, i normally just freak people out, cant name a single person once i havent freake dout, guess im just a freak, dont really matter though im comfortable with who i am, it just people are uncomfrtable with themselves
really jsut wanna hit something, fucking pissed off
mite jsut listen to some killswitch engage or more stiand or something and cry myself to sleep who knows
ARGGHGHGGFSGHSHJNYR HHSHHDHSADHDAHBDHTHARDTHARTHTHTATHA fucking bitches, girls neva know what they fucking want or what you want, beth fancied me and thought i wanted to be mates even though i gave her 100% attention, ellise thought i fancied her and ihad to make it clear she wasnt sexy, and she stil didnt believe me, luby thinks i have a stupidly bad crush, who knows what that 3rd yr chemist, or hollie, or nia, or cazzy and all of my other almost chances - i know what i want, i know what makes me happy, im willing to see what new things make me happy and make me feel happy with myself, why cant girls do the fucking same
i want to hear your comments
god im dreading this, ill be able to do it, if i get my mind ready, cause i know can do it if i apply myself, its jsut applying myself is the problem but the £500 bursary cheque should help though
just been tired since i got home, me katherine and some tohers want to set up a wine tasting society, but we mite just do it as a hobby instead
and bored just checking out peoples sites, and dont you jsut hate it when you come across someones site when they talking bout you, with shit, apparantly i wanted to switch unis sto see luby, haha as if i would, despite my difficulties id never consider that, but i swear she just constantly misinterprets me cause she thought i said i loved her, how can i, bloody odd! she a nice girl who quite sexy and extremly beautiful but it kinda obvious i couldnt see her if i bothered so i dont see why she gets so hung up
anyway physical lecture wednesday scared me, and i got my timetable, and i only have one elcture, wednesday AT 9AM!!!!
get up 7 to be home by 10, charming!
listening to staind, not too happy, may jus sleep to it
leave this on overnight gtting all the albums i want
as my mum and sis are away so im home alone until sunday, and nothing or noone to do it with, since noone local other than dave and richard and well they not female
cant have a party either cause house is far too small and messy due to my mums habit of collecting junk and doing car boots
god im so fucked at the moment! YAWNNNNNNNNN
cant believe luby thought that of me, cow, well no she aint evil, she mite jus have a low opinion of me, well no suprise there, i dont have many standards, thats fact and im quite happy admitting it, but i know when theres no chance, and well shes in spain so it kinda obvious there was no chance from begining, i just odnt know she probably was just an escape from my rather dead life at uni and home, just feel like im going nowhere fast with life, but one fings for sure, i dont need nobody be happy, i just want people to accept me for me, i dont mean any harm to anyone, i swear most people are jsut fucknig sheep though, like follow the leader
only person i ever have even almost loved was beth, but thats a no hoper due to facther heart lies with someone else, who known her longer etc etc and im that amazingly witty i have nothing to text anyone i know, ever, i normally just freak people out, cant name a single person once i havent freake dout, guess im just a freak, dont really matter though im comfortable with who i am, it just people are uncomfrtable with themselves
really jsut wanna hit something, fucking pissed off
mite jsut listen to some killswitch engage or more stiand or something and cry myself to sleep who knows
ARGGHGHGGFSGHSHJNYR HHSHHDHSADHDAHBDHTHARDTHARTHTHTATHA fucking bitches, girls neva know what they fucking want or what you want, beth fancied me and thought i wanted to be mates even though i gave her 100% attention, ellise thought i fancied her and ihad to make it clear she wasnt sexy, and she stil didnt believe me, luby thinks i have a stupidly bad crush, who knows what that 3rd yr chemist, or hollie, or nia, or cazzy and all of my other almost chances - i know what i want, i know what makes me happy, im willing to see what new things make me happy and make me feel happy with myself, why cant girls do the fucking same
i want to hear your comments