happiness
My heart is the happiest that it has been in a very, very long time!
Earlier today I actually heard the voice of one of my two best and dearst friends for the first time in 11 years. I recently found him on line but we had not managed to connect up by phone until today. This is my friend that no matter what is wrong in the world all he has to do is step into the room and everything is right. It has always been that way for both of us since day one.
He is one of the people I lost track of while I was married and living in hell! I have finely once again spoken with the one I fondly refer to as "my Knight in tarnished armor". He is doing well and in a good place. I can't begin to explain the impact that made on my stress levels except to say that when I hung up the phone it was like a giant weight had been lifted from my shoulders. He was the last of my "chosen family", "my tribe" that I had lost contact with. I actually feel like a whole person again instead of just part of one.
That had actually started at Lillies War. It was a great event and my shy little but actually made a new friend. A really cool one at that! Plus I learned that it is possible to "armor up" and take pictures in the middle of the fighting. Poppa assigned the guys to help me get minimal armor together over the summer since I have no clue what I am doing. I am really excited about this idea. It came up b/c Poppa handed my his camera to take pictures of the fighting the last day of the war...don't think the exepected to have to keep gently nudging me back from the fray. I handed the camera back when I realized that I was about to try and jump into the middle of it to get a picture whether anyoe liked it or not. I tried to warn him beforehand that if he handed me the damn thing I was the one they were going to be calling hold on.
Back to friends. I should be getting to see my "charles person" before the end of July. It is staring to look like I will get to see the other one, Archemage in August. I can't believe this is actually happening. I am actually going to get to be in the same room with the two people who have meant the world to me again!
Earlier today I actually heard the voice of one of my two best and dearst friends for the first time in 11 years. I recently found him on line but we had not managed to connect up by phone until today. This is my friend that no matter what is wrong in the world all he has to do is step into the room and everything is right. It has always been that way for both of us since day one.
He is one of the people I lost track of while I was married and living in hell! I have finely once again spoken with the one I fondly refer to as "my Knight in tarnished armor". He is doing well and in a good place. I can't begin to explain the impact that made on my stress levels except to say that when I hung up the phone it was like a giant weight had been lifted from my shoulders. He was the last of my "chosen family", "my tribe" that I had lost contact with. I actually feel like a whole person again instead of just part of one.
That had actually started at Lillies War. It was a great event and my shy little but actually made a new friend. A really cool one at that! Plus I learned that it is possible to "armor up" and take pictures in the middle of the fighting. Poppa assigned the guys to help me get minimal armor together over the summer since I have no clue what I am doing. I am really excited about this idea. It came up b/c Poppa handed my his camera to take pictures of the fighting the last day of the war...don't think the exepected to have to keep gently nudging me back from the fray. I handed the camera back when I realized that I was about to try and jump into the middle of it to get a picture whether anyoe liked it or not. I tried to warn him beforehand that if he handed me the damn thing I was the one they were going to be calling hold on.
Back to friends. I should be getting to see my "charles person" before the end of July. It is staring to look like I will get to see the other one, Archemage in August. I can't believe this is actually happening. I am actually going to get to be in the same room with the two people who have meant the world to me again!