cut me some slack?
i cleaned the bathroom today. i felt like i accomplished something but alas my victory was shot down when a friend of mine told me that i could do better than cleaning one room a day. i then on retorted with the following.
"hey now between putting stuff together that i bought for sophia, (basinet, stroller, crib and etc) and doing laundry, grocery shopping and paying bills and more shopping for the baby, making hotel reservations for family, and being on bed rest for pregnancy complications for a week, and going to work during the day for 8 hours a day(which doesnt seem like alot for some but to a 37 week preg person its alot, and they dont let me take maternity leave until after i have the baby), FRG meetings on the weekend(those are meeting pertaining to our spouses in iraq and updates) i think one room a day is better than not cleaning at all. i get exhausted easily.
cut me slack man! :p
its not easy doing the pregnancy thing alone. (as my family and his family all live in different states and him in iraq). if i had some help i could probably get more than one room a day done. but im really doing the best i can :p"
i think im just a little more emotional these days. i try to stay positive but when people seem to point out that im not doing enough it really bums me out. i mean for the past 5 months ive been coming home to an empty house, worring about my husband being in iraq. its hard enough dealing with the fact that hes in danger out there. not having family or friends out here to help me thru this pregnancy has been tough but its strengthened me. i didnt get spoiled or pampered. i did everything that needed to be done, on my own. taking care of finance issues, working, dealing with drama at work and with both sides of the family, my health issues and other stuff i think ive done a pretty good job. i just need someone to cut me slack. i know that im not the only one whos been thru pregnancy alone but until it happens to you, you really dont know how difficult it can be.
joey doesnt come home til november (if his deployment doesnt get extended to march of 2008). its hard watching the news these days, so i try not to. hes not in baghdad and for that we are lucky. but hes still in a place where suicide bombers have went off and IED and RPG's, and schools have been bombed, police offers out there (the IP) have been killed. im proud of him. im proud of how hes maintaining his sanity. i miss him. i fear for him. the pain some days is so overwhelming i feel myself begin to panic.
aaah i better not start. ive shed enough tears this past week.
"hey now between putting stuff together that i bought for sophia, (basinet, stroller, crib and etc) and doing laundry, grocery shopping and paying bills and more shopping for the baby, making hotel reservations for family, and being on bed rest for pregnancy complications for a week, and going to work during the day for 8 hours a day(which doesnt seem like alot for some but to a 37 week preg person its alot, and they dont let me take maternity leave until after i have the baby), FRG meetings on the weekend(those are meeting pertaining to our spouses in iraq and updates) i think one room a day is better than not cleaning at all. i get exhausted easily.
cut me slack man! :p
its not easy doing the pregnancy thing alone. (as my family and his family all live in different states and him in iraq). if i had some help i could probably get more than one room a day done. but im really doing the best i can :p"
i think im just a little more emotional these days. i try to stay positive but when people seem to point out that im not doing enough it really bums me out. i mean for the past 5 months ive been coming home to an empty house, worring about my husband being in iraq. its hard enough dealing with the fact that hes in danger out there. not having family or friends out here to help me thru this pregnancy has been tough but its strengthened me. i didnt get spoiled or pampered. i did everything that needed to be done, on my own. taking care of finance issues, working, dealing with drama at work and with both sides of the family, my health issues and other stuff i think ive done a pretty good job. i just need someone to cut me slack. i know that im not the only one whos been thru pregnancy alone but until it happens to you, you really dont know how difficult it can be.
joey doesnt come home til november (if his deployment doesnt get extended to march of 2008). its hard watching the news these days, so i try not to. hes not in baghdad and for that we are lucky. but hes still in a place where suicide bombers have went off and IED and RPG's, and schools have been bombed, police offers out there (the IP) have been killed. im proud of him. im proud of how hes maintaining his sanity. i miss him. i fear for him. the pain some days is so overwhelming i feel myself begin to panic.
aaah i better not start. ive shed enough tears this past week.