If ya dont know now ya know....(yes the rap song)
I've fallen somewhere between two groups of people (since of course there are only 2 kinds of people in this world). I feel I have become too old for some friends' partying and wasting time with shenanigans and talking nonsense and yet still too young to start relating to the newly married old farts who stay at home and snuggle all the time or the "been single for too long and it's starting to make me crazy in the head, and now have become desperate and it it shows, and thats not attractive so they're all the more single" Type. So I'm like the one who doesnt belong anywhere. Cause maybe I should be married by this time, and starting a family. My mum was 6 monthes pregnant with me at my age, and while she was getting married at 19 I was still learning the lyrics and chords to "Glycering", wearing glittery eyeshadow, dressing like Gwen stefani, and just getting over my first breakup. (I had no idea how many more there were to come:)
But I'm fine with not being married, I'm having an awesome time being with Josh and being able to leave when I need space and not have to any real huge obligations.
But I still feel unsure about alot of thing's and just wanna start feeling secure in who I am growing up to be. I' still growing up but it feels like I should already be there by now.
By this time I 'm pretty sure that God didnt create me to be just like everyone else so I oughta just trust that the good work he started in me, he'll finish in his timing. I'm reading a pretty good book Lately. I only started it cause my very recently seen friend Tony sent it to me in the mail and said it was great (I dont read alot of "girl" books). If yer a girl you should read it but if yer a boy you should read it twice as much. "Captivating" by the John and Staci Eldredge. Welcome to reading rainbow!
I really like being a virgin.
I pretty much love flounting it as much as possible.(J/K)
ALthough all my roomates are as well, so Im no one special really.
My BF Josh is not, and maybe it bugs me that his last girl friend(fiance)is in the vicky's secret catalog (wearing clothes),but what can you do...I cant compete with that. Some skinny armed penelope cruz girl who is so much sweeter and more beautiful than I....The only thing I have on her is that I'm bloody Hilarious I suppose, and buckets of fun! Hope Josh is'nt too easily swayed cause he's going down to Houston to see all his friends and he might just get back with one of his X's we'll see.
What a man, what a man, what a mighty good man....I put eye makeup on him tonight. He looked like captain Jack sparrow. SAvvy?
MAybe it bugs me how guys can just screw up (Screw used literally here) and live this crappy life, the whole time knowing the truth, than turn around a few years later and demand a beautifully sacred girl who has saved herself. It's just not right.
Maybe in a way that's how God feels about us and our sinfulness. Sounds like the parable of the workers in the vineyard. If you dont know it, read it it's in the Bible somewhere)
Put up christmas lights in my room today, but only half of them worked so I went to buy more, but I guess they dont sell 'em till freakin' christmas....so half the room...
I hate it when you get a key on your keyboard sticky with jelly.
Had a full body massage today. I get one a week since the accident in July (story for another day).
What is in a name? More than we think?
bored in the airport
On the beach after a bike ride
But I'm fine with not being married, I'm having an awesome time being with Josh and being able to leave when I need space and not have to any real huge obligations.
But I still feel unsure about alot of thing's and just wanna start feeling secure in who I am growing up to be. I' still growing up but it feels like I should already be there by now.
By this time I 'm pretty sure that God didnt create me to be just like everyone else so I oughta just trust that the good work he started in me, he'll finish in his timing. I'm reading a pretty good book Lately. I only started it cause my very recently seen friend Tony sent it to me in the mail and said it was great (I dont read alot of "girl" books). If yer a girl you should read it but if yer a boy you should read it twice as much. "Captivating" by the John and Staci Eldredge. Welcome to reading rainbow!
I really like being a virgin.
I pretty much love flounting it as much as possible.(J/K)
ALthough all my roomates are as well, so Im no one special really.
My BF Josh is not, and maybe it bugs me that his last girl friend(fiance)is in the vicky's secret catalog (wearing clothes),but what can you do...I cant compete with that. Some skinny armed penelope cruz girl who is so much sweeter and more beautiful than I....The only thing I have on her is that I'm bloody Hilarious I suppose, and buckets of fun! Hope Josh is'nt too easily swayed cause he's going down to Houston to see all his friends and he might just get back with one of his X's we'll see.
What a man, what a man, what a mighty good man....I put eye makeup on him tonight. He looked like captain Jack sparrow. SAvvy?
MAybe it bugs me how guys can just screw up (Screw used literally here) and live this crappy life, the whole time knowing the truth, than turn around a few years later and demand a beautifully sacred girl who has saved herself. It's just not right.
Maybe in a way that's how God feels about us and our sinfulness. Sounds like the parable of the workers in the vineyard. If you dont know it, read it it's in the Bible somewhere)
Put up christmas lights in my room today, but only half of them worked so I went to buy more, but I guess they dont sell 'em till freakin' christmas....so half the room...
I hate it when you get a key on your keyboard sticky with jelly.
Had a full body massage today. I get one a week since the accident in July (story for another day).
What is in a name? More than we think?
bored in the airport
On the beach after a bike ride