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I am generally feeling much, much better than I was during my previous entry. But I am fighting against a general feeling of apathy.
Today I got a lot more information on the Freiburg program from one of the German advisors and from a girl who was there last year. I really, really want to do it - even more so after today - but I am also fairly scared.
I have been spending most of my time outside of Case Hall this year. It has been good to generally escape the Madison environment - an environment which I pretty much hate with all my soul, aside from my friends within it. One girl I met two weeks ago did not even realize I was a Madison student until today - and well aware as I am of the stigma attached to that wretched school (a stigma which is one hundred percent warranted), I was glad of this. I think making a couple friends across campus and spending time elsewhere has been really good for my beginning to like MSU alot more than I did last year.
I am also strangely not looking forward to going back to Rochester this weekend. I am excited to see Amy as I somewhat shockingly haven't seen her since before England, but I feel at the same time as though I have less and less to do in Rochester (less and less people to see) as time goes on. As I begin to become more rooted at MSU, as I begin to branch out even more within MSU (thank God), I am becoming less in love with Rochester, and this is not something I expected to happen.
Today I got a lot more information on the Freiburg program from one of the German advisors and from a girl who was there last year. I really, really want to do it - even more so after today - but I am also fairly scared.
I have been spending most of my time outside of Case Hall this year. It has been good to generally escape the Madison environment - an environment which I pretty much hate with all my soul, aside from my friends within it. One girl I met two weeks ago did not even realize I was a Madison student until today - and well aware as I am of the stigma attached to that wretched school (a stigma which is one hundred percent warranted), I was glad of this. I think making a couple friends across campus and spending time elsewhere has been really good for my beginning to like MSU alot more than I did last year.
I am also strangely not looking forward to going back to Rochester this weekend. I am excited to see Amy as I somewhat shockingly haven't seen her since before England, but I feel at the same time as though I have less and less to do in Rochester (less and less people to see) as time goes on. As I begin to become more rooted at MSU, as I begin to branch out even more within MSU (thank God), I am becoming less in love with Rochester, and this is not something I expected to happen.