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* i can't forget the things you never said *
how much will this cost me?
this is just heart break - nothing more. nothing less. something i'm familiar with..( haven't seen you for awhile )... something that has felt this way before. nothing purposeful. nothing earth moving. nothing unique. this is just chemical anxiety, this is just chemical sad..ness. this is something to be blocked by other chemicals at my will. my emotional painkillers. a drive-by "i miss you" and fragments-of-something-real fiction he spins and captures just adds fuel to my fire. the fuel i leak in desperation. the lie of the worthy one. the lie of the fractal me.
"did i happen to mention i am a contagious living fluid?"
"that's fine....i am just a breakbone false start"
what a wonderful pair. right.
i leave from the place you first came to me. they are beating out a rhythm that gives me jet lag of a broken heart.
* this is absolute, this is absolution *
how much will this cost me?
this is just heart break - nothing more. nothing less. something i'm familiar with..( haven't seen you for awhile )... something that has felt this way before. nothing purposeful. nothing earth moving. nothing unique. this is just chemical anxiety, this is just chemical sad..ness. this is something to be blocked by other chemicals at my will. my emotional painkillers. a drive-by "i miss you" and fragments-of-something-real fiction he spins and captures just adds fuel to my fire. the fuel i leak in desperation. the lie of the worthy one. the lie of the fractal me.
"did i happen to mention i am a contagious living fluid?"
"that's fine....i am just a breakbone false start"
what a wonderful pair. right.
i leave from the place you first came to me. they are beating out a rhythm that gives me jet lag of a broken heart.
* this is absolute, this is absolution *