[..F u l l C o l l a p s e..]
So.. This is going to be my first actually vent here in this journal. I'm not trying to start anything I just need to get some of my thoughts out.. so everyone knows whats going on.. So please if your names in here don't get all pissed.. It's not like I'm trying to be mean.. or am I?
First the award for most unneeded bullshit & drama goes to the ever so unpredictable Nadia.. Okay so I guess were not friends? I don't think I ever said or did anything to you. From what I remember.. you just kinda stopped talking to me. I hadn't heard anything from you for weeks.. then on my birthday you decide to say "Happy Birthday" out of no where.. And I'm supposed to be all excited because of that and just ya know rub things off? Just like I usual do right? fuck that.. I'm sick of this shit. I've been there for you for a lot of stuff right? who fucking helped you get ready for prom so you didn't go and look like something the kat just dragged in? who was there to save you when you needed to get out of your house because of your parents bullshit? who was there to talk to you and comfort you when things didn't go well? huh?.. I believe I was there. I said this shit to you before but I don't think it processed in your head. You take to much shit for granted.. but you know what.. it's not going to happen again. As I fell into your little mind games. sorry it's over.
Next off.. Rachel...Rachel, Rachel, Rachel. What the fuck is up with you? parading around town doing all this stupid shit? I can't believe some of the shit I'm hearing. I just want to know what's your deal? really. I mean you meet this guy.. you lead him on to think that you really like him.. then you go fuck some other dude? whats with that? So now your starting to be like you used to be.. have these guys control you and your life. And the lies.. all the fucking lies. Oh I tried calling you and this and that. yeah okay. And you too, don't bother to contact me for like 2 weeks then call and wish me a happy birthday.. god. you people are fuck up. Shit.. I hung out with you when no one else would.. No one wanted anything to do with you. But I was nice and tried to be cool with you like we used to be. Question: What ever happened to chicks before dicks..? I guess we don't mean anything anymore. Oh well. No offense but we don't need you.. I don't need you.
...Ahh I allready feel some relief...
I don't think she'll read this but this one goes out to Sara.. Yes my best friend Sara. Don't worry, I don't hate you. But your just going to fuck things up in your life if you don't watch what your doing. I know you like all these guys but like I said you need to choose one. You'll end up hurting one of them.. then you'll notice the one you hurt was the one who would treat you the best. The world works in the most fucked up ways. I don't want you to look at me anymore and think of all those guys I did stuff with.. it was a mistake. horrible mistake. Those things are things you shouldn't do.. Your young and your right you should be able to go do what you want. But cheating on someone isn't cool. I know your worried that your not going to find love.. But cheating on someone and going behind backs and messing with a bunch of guys isn't going to help you. I guess your just going through the stage I also went through. I just hope it passes soon.
Let's see who's next off.. Oh Jaqie & Becca.. First things first. I love you both.. and I don't want to be in the middle of this fight. Jaqie I said some stuff, yes. Sorry I don't really know the story so I'm not going to make any further judgment about anything. I'm not taking sides because that would just be so second grade of me. I just want to be on good terms with you both. I hope you both understand. <3
Alot of people I know are turning into people I hate.. people who I want nothing to do with or even know.. I'm not going to try and run your life. Do what you want, but I'm only warning you for the worst has yet to come.. I guess thats all for now.. I just want to thank those few people there for making my life much a miserable place. Sorry about the long entry..
That is all ::bows::
>>sicKa.
First the award for most unneeded bullshit & drama goes to the ever so unpredictable Nadia.. Okay so I guess were not friends? I don't think I ever said or did anything to you. From what I remember.. you just kinda stopped talking to me. I hadn't heard anything from you for weeks.. then on my birthday you decide to say "Happy Birthday" out of no where.. And I'm supposed to be all excited because of that and just ya know rub things off? Just like I usual do right? fuck that.. I'm sick of this shit. I've been there for you for a lot of stuff right? who fucking helped you get ready for prom so you didn't go and look like something the kat just dragged in? who was there to save you when you needed to get out of your house because of your parents bullshit? who was there to talk to you and comfort you when things didn't go well? huh?.. I believe I was there. I said this shit to you before but I don't think it processed in your head. You take to much shit for granted.. but you know what.. it's not going to happen again. As I fell into your little mind games. sorry it's over.
Next off.. Rachel...Rachel, Rachel, Rachel. What the fuck is up with you? parading around town doing all this stupid shit? I can't believe some of the shit I'm hearing. I just want to know what's your deal? really. I mean you meet this guy.. you lead him on to think that you really like him.. then you go fuck some other dude? whats with that? So now your starting to be like you used to be.. have these guys control you and your life. And the lies.. all the fucking lies. Oh I tried calling you and this and that. yeah okay. And you too, don't bother to contact me for like 2 weeks then call and wish me a happy birthday.. god. you people are fuck up. Shit.. I hung out with you when no one else would.. No one wanted anything to do with you. But I was nice and tried to be cool with you like we used to be. Question: What ever happened to chicks before dicks..? I guess we don't mean anything anymore. Oh well. No offense but we don't need you.. I don't need you.
...Ahh I allready feel some relief...
I don't think she'll read this but this one goes out to Sara.. Yes my best friend Sara. Don't worry, I don't hate you. But your just going to fuck things up in your life if you don't watch what your doing. I know you like all these guys but like I said you need to choose one. You'll end up hurting one of them.. then you'll notice the one you hurt was the one who would treat you the best. The world works in the most fucked up ways. I don't want you to look at me anymore and think of all those guys I did stuff with.. it was a mistake. horrible mistake. Those things are things you shouldn't do.. Your young and your right you should be able to go do what you want. But cheating on someone isn't cool. I know your worried that your not going to find love.. But cheating on someone and going behind backs and messing with a bunch of guys isn't going to help you. I guess your just going through the stage I also went through. I just hope it passes soon.
Let's see who's next off.. Oh Jaqie & Becca.. First things first. I love you both.. and I don't want to be in the middle of this fight. Jaqie I said some stuff, yes. Sorry I don't really know the story so I'm not going to make any further judgment about anything. I'm not taking sides because that would just be so second grade of me. I just want to be on good terms with you both. I hope you both understand. <3
Alot of people I know are turning into people I hate.. people who I want nothing to do with or even know.. I'm not going to try and run your life. Do what you want, but I'm only warning you for the worst has yet to come.. I guess thats all for now.. I just want to thank those few people there for making my life much a miserable place. Sorry about the long entry..
That is all ::bows::
>>sicKa.