I wish...
I wish i could just spill everything but i cant. It's soo hard.
Ive been thinking no one really knows me. If anything Justin knows the most but its not much that he knows. I mean friends try and help me when i have problems but then they just get mad..not my fault i get so upset. So yea friends are really helping not even that stupid shrink! I hate this so much. I can never get anything that i really want someone else always gets it and i try and i try so much to be happy about it but i cant take it anymore now i just break down and cry. I cant pretend. I hurt so much inside and i do stupid things to help get my mind off of it which hurts even more. I know im only 13 but my life is really hard to handle at my age and i dont think i can take it. Yea ive thought about suicide 1nce or twice but i know thats only going to make things worse. I just dont know what to do anymore ive tryed talking to people but they dont help. I just want to be happy but its soo hard. Enough of my complaing now every one start bitching at me for writing this. It would help if you could talk to me about this all but i know poeple are going to bitch instead so start the bitching...
Ive been thinking no one really knows me. If anything Justin knows the most but its not much that he knows. I mean friends try and help me when i have problems but then they just get mad..not my fault i get so upset. So yea friends are really helping not even that stupid shrink! I hate this so much. I can never get anything that i really want someone else always gets it and i try and i try so much to be happy about it but i cant take it anymore now i just break down and cry. I cant pretend. I hurt so much inside and i do stupid things to help get my mind off of it which hurts even more. I know im only 13 but my life is really hard to handle at my age and i dont think i can take it. Yea ive thought about suicide 1nce or twice but i know thats only going to make things worse. I just dont know what to do anymore ive tryed talking to people but they dont help. I just want to be happy but its soo hard. Enough of my complaing now every one start bitching at me for writing this. It would help if you could talk to me about this all but i know poeple are going to bitch instead so start the bitching...