Tell Me Baby Why You Cry Tonight.
[mood|
sad]
[music|Kotodama - Kagrra,]
I'm not who you think I am.
The person you look at and think of as me, isn't. That's not my face when I look into the mirror. I could tell you who I am seeing, but if it flies from my own mind, it would just be a lie.
People who take pictures of me, do they think they can recreate my dead eyes? Do they think that they'd like to be me? Am I attractive? Am I beautiful? Do you want to be me? It's hard living, when your insides are poison and eat upon themselves. You've been watching me, as I descend. Slowly, slowly I fall into madness. Soon I will disappear. Does this make your blood race? Do you wish to have sex with me? Or are you just unhappy with how you look? I look pretty, don't I? I look pretty and small and I'll kill you if you ever come too close again.
I've let myself get out of control. It shouldn't be about me. It should be about my stories, and my funny little jokes that make kind people smile. That's all I care about. I refuse to cry that I'm selfish and evil. I will stop complaining that I am alone and that I can't find anybody I want to love. I will continue. See me, smiling so well. I'll be Ryutaro. No more, no less.
And you, with your hungry eyes, spin and spin and laugh at me. Maybe I'll love you someday.
sad]
[music|Kotodama - Kagrra,]
I'm not who you think I am.
The person you look at and think of as me, isn't. That's not my face when I look into the mirror. I could tell you who I am seeing, but if it flies from my own mind, it would just be a lie.
People who take pictures of me, do they think they can recreate my dead eyes? Do they think that they'd like to be me? Am I attractive? Am I beautiful? Do you want to be me? It's hard living, when your insides are poison and eat upon themselves. You've been watching me, as I descend. Slowly, slowly I fall into madness. Soon I will disappear. Does this make your blood race? Do you wish to have sex with me? Or are you just unhappy with how you look? I look pretty, don't I? I look pretty and small and I'll kill you if you ever come too close again.
I've let myself get out of control. It shouldn't be about me. It should be about my stories, and my funny little jokes that make kind people smile. That's all I care about. I refuse to cry that I'm selfish and evil. I will stop complaining that I am alone and that I can't find anybody I want to love. I will continue. See me, smiling so well. I'll be Ryutaro. No more, no less.
And you, with your hungry eyes, spin and spin and laugh at me. Maybe I'll love you someday.