Nearly Died. No..Wait...................heartbeat.
I haven't written, intentionally, for quite some time.
I am sure some were thinking..."what the hell? I know she and V broke up..but is she even alive."
Truth is, yes I am and more than ever. I was in quite the state of sadness for about 2 and a half months. When I get into that state I find myself becoming a hermit and cursing the idea of going out. Especially when you pair that with the fact that I would have to see what was the love of my life with a new woman. Scary prospect. But at any rate, I am over it and I, more than anything, just didn't want to cause any drama.
I am now in a very good space and have discovered more about myself than ever. What I want in a boi, and def what I don't. I am grateful for the times I have had with V, and he was my very best friend for a long time. Nothing will ever take away the good times. I will take those with me and leave the bad behind...Far behind.
Currently, I am going to the U fulltime and working fulltime. I get to work with Brother Ben everyday and he keeps me good company and makes me laugh a lot...Actually everyone works with me now which is rad..Fetish, Kenz, Bob and Al...All of which make me smile daily(hopefully Sharyl soon!) I have been talking with Jeana via e-mail everyday and I try to keeep in contact with people who can remember to contact me. I have even seen Ewik and Becky!! :) Thank you to those of you who have reached out to me and consistently been there when I have fallen on my face or in my black hole. Those of you that have been patient with my little quirks of no contact and still loving me and knowing that I love you. You guys are irreplacable.I am so fucking forgetful.( No offense, it doesnt mean I love you any less.)
Hmm...well I guess all this change could seem pretty dramamtic, but it isn't. I am a low drama type of girl. I am dating someone that is out of the scene...which is pretty nice. Not getting caught up in the weekly clubbing or should I say, being limited to that is great. I go up to the mountains regularly and have relearned nature. I think I forgot how soothing it can be..
I am becoming more social now-a-days, so if you would like to see me once again...let me know. I would love to go out and do something!! Preferably something a little random that involves lots of laughing and acting like an arse. (maybe with a little alcohol on the side....::smoke, smoke:::
<3
I am sure some were thinking..."what the hell? I know she and V broke up..but is she even alive."
Truth is, yes I am and more than ever. I was in quite the state of sadness for about 2 and a half months. When I get into that state I find myself becoming a hermit and cursing the idea of going out. Especially when you pair that with the fact that I would have to see what was the love of my life with a new woman. Scary prospect. But at any rate, I am over it and I, more than anything, just didn't want to cause any drama.
I am now in a very good space and have discovered more about myself than ever. What I want in a boi, and def what I don't. I am grateful for the times I have had with V, and he was my very best friend for a long time. Nothing will ever take away the good times. I will take those with me and leave the bad behind...Far behind.
Currently, I am going to the U fulltime and working fulltime. I get to work with Brother Ben everyday and he keeps me good company and makes me laugh a lot...Actually everyone works with me now which is rad..Fetish, Kenz, Bob and Al...All of which make me smile daily(hopefully Sharyl soon!) I have been talking with Jeana via e-mail everyday and I try to keeep in contact with people who can remember to contact me. I have even seen Ewik and Becky!! :) Thank you to those of you who have reached out to me and consistently been there when I have fallen on my face or in my black hole. Those of you that have been patient with my little quirks of no contact and still loving me and knowing that I love you. You guys are irreplacable.I am so fucking forgetful.( No offense, it doesnt mean I love you any less.)
Hmm...well I guess all this change could seem pretty dramamtic, but it isn't. I am a low drama type of girl. I am dating someone that is out of the scene...which is pretty nice. Not getting caught up in the weekly clubbing or should I say, being limited to that is great. I go up to the mountains regularly and have relearned nature. I think I forgot how soothing it can be..
I am becoming more social now-a-days, so if you would like to see me once again...let me know. I would love to go out and do something!! Preferably something a little random that involves lots of laughing and acting like an arse. (maybe with a little alcohol on the side....::smoke, smoke:::
<3