But...I don't GET nervous.

[syntheah]

I am so nervous about this appointment. I suppose I always think that writing about it will lessen that feeling..
well I hope so anyhow. Thanx to all the ladies (& Jimmy) for the words of encouragement.
I mean it is not like I think I am gonna die. I just don't wanna do it.
Man I wish I could afford to do something spectacular after wards!

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[alanja]

I don't know if you read my post a while back, but if it makes you feel better this was my post about how nervous I was:

I am freaking out! This is probably TMI, but I am mortified to go to the girl doctor today and get my "exam". I haven't been in almost 10 years, and I am pretty sure that my cervix is one big tumor, so I need a professional opinion to back it up. Is that what I am afraid of? No. Me, I'm scared of being seen from the waist down without clothes on. Yep, so freaked out I almost want to cancel right now. And of course I had neither the time for a DYI hedge trimming, or the money for a waxing, so the poor lady is gonna be fighting back the hairs! But that won't shock her as much as what I am going to be wearing. In a panic to conceal everything I can, I have fashioned an old pair of tights into "crotch-high" thigh-hi's, complete with a hiked up garter belt to keep them firmly around my bulbous thighs. Oh god, I am really pathetic, I think I would rather just let my whole uterus rot off. If I "pass" the test I think I'll wait another 10 years for my next exam, if I "fail" then I'm going to regret even going through all this to find out!

EDITED: I think I am going to take a sedative before I go...I'm losing it. Dare I say it, I'd almost rather get on an airplane right now than do this!