Fuck
I'm so fucking sick of mood stabilizers and anti-depressants. The LAST thing they do is stabilize. I lost the line between chemical imbalances and reality a long, long time ago. If I don't take this pill one day, I'll get sick, nauseous, tired, loose my appetite, and get head aches, which wont stop till I take it again. It's the bodily with drawl from welbutrin. If I do take it, I don't know. Some days I don't notice any perverse habits. Other days I completely stop being able to make rational desions and become a self destructive vegetable. I don't know how I feel without this shit in my system. I don't know how long it takes to ween myself off of it, and what kind of withdrawl/side effects will happen. Or if I'll become "mega" depressed without it.
Depression vs. Functionality/sanity
hmmm
Depression vs. Functionality/sanity
hmmm