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I've never fully regret someone I've dated. God, I wasted 2 years of my life with someone who was pretty much worthless in the end. I was too blind to see he really was a shitty person, I gave that stupid fuck the benefit of the doubt because he seemed so fucking "innocent." He fucking cheated on me, whether he wants to admit that or not. All this time I've been wasting my breath for him to fucking be truthful to himself, but as if that was going to happen. Guys will fucking defend their innocence till the fucking death! Even Silvia said once that getting Richard to admit to cheating on her took 5 hours on the phone. WHAT THE FUCK! We all know you did it, just fucking come out with it already. I'm not even sure why I keep asking and begging him to admit to doing it. I guess I just want some type of closure that I didn't come running back to a worthless piece of shit. I know I'm always like "I'll ruin your life," but in the end it was a waste of effort. But God, look at the grief you've caused me and I would just fucking die for him to feel the same. How can you fucking talk shit about me to someone else when probably at the end of that night you told me you loved me? I can't imagine what goes through his mind, or wait... what mind? what head? what conscience? He has the IQ of a fucking 10 year old. I don't know why I even stuck around before, he dropped out of highschool AND community college, returned BACK to nova to live with his mom. Really? You escaped all the smallest of the big world responsibilities, even when your mom was helping your sorry ass in Richmond. I hate him so much. I never loved him, it was blind love. Too blind to even realize what was happening right before my eyes. I dated a pathetic loser. I fucking don't wish him the best. He fucking cries that we're not together, WELL HELLO DUMBASS, you took that away from us. YOU dumped me because you were selfish and wanted your so-called "space." I hope everything falls under beneath you and you have completely nothing. I hope nothing for you. I hope the worst and only the worst, you worthless sack of shit.