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My mother wants me to be at NVI listening to ryan and caryn sing right now
Instead I'm laying in bed with a bad sore throat just wanting to curl up and cry
I'm really sorry I've been ranting so much
But I honestly need an outlet
This is just one of very few I have right now so if you're bored of me
Cry about it
Plans didn't turn out quite like I imagined
But I had a good night anyway
I've come to a point of realization
I'm not angry anymore
I honestly can't blame him
I am a very difficult person to be around for long periods of time
Forced to grow up very quickly left me with suprising amounts of immaturity in early adulthood
For being very self aware I've got a lot to realize about myself still
I won't take this time for granted
Its time to become a better person
Even if that means being alone for a while
I still miss him a lot
I know he's not half a person
And I know he's got great potential and I hope he sees that too
I really do love him enough to want him to be happy
Ill be jealous and hurt and probably angry again but...
I hope he's happy with her
He deserves happiness just as much as I do
Instead I'm laying in bed with a bad sore throat just wanting to curl up and cry
I'm really sorry I've been ranting so much
But I honestly need an outlet
This is just one of very few I have right now so if you're bored of me
Cry about it
Plans didn't turn out quite like I imagined
But I had a good night anyway
I've come to a point of realization
I'm not angry anymore
I honestly can't blame him
I am a very difficult person to be around for long periods of time
Forced to grow up very quickly left me with suprising amounts of immaturity in early adulthood
For being very self aware I've got a lot to realize about myself still
I won't take this time for granted
Its time to become a better person
Even if that means being alone for a while
I still miss him a lot
I know he's not half a person
And I know he's got great potential and I hope he sees that too
I really do love him enough to want him to be happy
Ill be jealous and hurt and probably angry again but...
I hope he's happy with her
He deserves happiness just as much as I do