Again (I Love You Please See And Believe Again)
Title: Again (I Love You Please See And Believe Again)
Rating: PG
Fandom: Degrassi TNG
Pairings: Jay/Spinner, mentions of a past Jay/Alex
Warnings: Slash, het, cheating
Author's Notes: I really love this one actually. I don't know why, but I do. Title from the song "Again" by Flyleaf.
Progress: 1/2 incomplete
Prompt: You were right about me at un_love_you
Summary: Jay makes the biggest mistake of his life. Alex helps him through it.
“You were right about me.” Alex jumps, startled at the voice that drifts up from somewhere near her feet. It's Jay and he sounds bad, voice rough and hoarse, pain lacing every word.
“Jay, what the hell are you doing here?” She asks as she searches her pockets for her keys.
“Spinner broke up with me.” Jay stands up as she opens the door and walks in after her, kicking the door closed.
“Why?” She asks, heading for the small kitchen and grabbing two beers from the fridge. She handed Jay one and took a seat on the couch next to him, shifting so she could face him.
“Because I cheated on him.” Jay takes a swig of the beer in his hands.
“Why the fuck would you do something so stupid? He loved you! He was the best thing for you and you ruin it for, what, some bimbo in a bar or club?” Alex snaps, anger rising in her throat, hot and acidic, burning to get out. Instead she holds it in because this is too familiar, reminds her too strongly of when she found out that Jay was cheating on her in high school. She can only imagine how Spinner feels. He's been with Jay for a lot longer than Alex has.
Jay shrugs helplessly. He doesn't know. The thought that Spinner would find out never even crossed his mind. That makes him a selfish bastard, he knows, but he never meant to hurt Spinner. It just happened, and God, what a cliche that it is, but all the same, that's what he feels.
“You're an asshole.” Alex says, still angry, but slightly more calm.
“I know.” Jay says simply, taking another drink.
“Are you going to try to get him back?” Alex asks, taking a drink of her own beer.
“Yes, I still love him. I don't think he'll take me back, but I've got to try.” Jay says, scrubbing at his face with his hands, looking utterly miserable. Alex doesn't bother wasting her pity and sympathy on him, the cheating bastard. Nevertheless, she reaches out and rubs his back lightly, giving a little bit of comfort.
He sighs and looks up at her, tears shining brightly in those too blue eyes. Something inside of her aches for a moment as she remembers all the times they spent together, all the touches and kisses, smiles and laughter. Then it's gone, and she reminds herself sharply that she's got Paige and doesn't need Jay anymore. She won't say she never needed him because there was a time that she did, but it was long ago and the person that needs Jay now is Spinner, no matter how much he hates Jay right now, and she knows he does because she's been though this before with Jay, and also knows that Spinner will still love the jerk because some part of her that she keeps buried still loves him too.
“You can sleep here tonight, if you want.” Alex says abruptly, standing up and gathering their empty bottle from the coffee table.
“Thanks Alex.” He says quietly, another sigh escaping him. He knows he messed up, know he hurt Spinner, knows that Spinner probably really doesn't like him right now, and might not even love him anymore (but he won't dwell on that because that hurts too much to contemplate. He needs Spinner like he needs the air that he breathes. He can't live without either.) but he knows he's got to go back to Spinner and show him that he still loves him and show him exactly how sorry he is for cheating on him.
Alex throws a pillow and a blanket at him and he mumbles his thanks and she nods, walking down the short hallway to her bedroom. The door closes, but Jay can hear her opening drawers and getting ready for bed.
He lays down and tries to fall asleep. Instead all he can see behind his closed lids is the look on Spinner's face as he walks in the door and sees Jay on the couch with the girl, he can't remember her name anymore, and sees their clothes in a pile on the floor.
He hears the way Spinner's voice sounded so broken and hurt as he told Jay to get out and never come back. He didn't even yell. What haunts him most, though, is the hollow and flat look in Spinner's usually warm eyes. How cold they looked, as though he were dead. He might as well be. Jay stole his heart and then threw it away all for some girl who's name he can't even remember.
Tears make their way slowly and silently down his face. It so bad to think that he had put that look on Spinner's face. The only thing left to do was erase it.
Easier said than done, but he was determined to do it.
Spinner was his other half after all. He needs him like he needs oxygen.
He could only hope that Spinner could see that it was times like these that you learn to love again.
Rating: PG
Fandom: Degrassi TNG
Pairings: Jay/Spinner, mentions of a past Jay/Alex
Warnings: Slash, het, cheating
Author's Notes: I really love this one actually. I don't know why, but I do. Title from the song "Again" by Flyleaf.
Progress: 1/2 incomplete
Prompt: You were right about me at un_love_you
Summary: Jay makes the biggest mistake of his life. Alex helps him through it.
“You were right about me.” Alex jumps, startled at the voice that drifts up from somewhere near her feet. It's Jay and he sounds bad, voice rough and hoarse, pain lacing every word.
“Jay, what the hell are you doing here?” She asks as she searches her pockets for her keys.
“Spinner broke up with me.” Jay stands up as she opens the door and walks in after her, kicking the door closed.
“Why?” She asks, heading for the small kitchen and grabbing two beers from the fridge. She handed Jay one and took a seat on the couch next to him, shifting so she could face him.
“Because I cheated on him.” Jay takes a swig of the beer in his hands.
“Why the fuck would you do something so stupid? He loved you! He was the best thing for you and you ruin it for, what, some bimbo in a bar or club?” Alex snaps, anger rising in her throat, hot and acidic, burning to get out. Instead she holds it in because this is too familiar, reminds her too strongly of when she found out that Jay was cheating on her in high school. She can only imagine how Spinner feels. He's been with Jay for a lot longer than Alex has.
Jay shrugs helplessly. He doesn't know. The thought that Spinner would find out never even crossed his mind. That makes him a selfish bastard, he knows, but he never meant to hurt Spinner. It just happened, and God, what a cliche that it is, but all the same, that's what he feels.
“You're an asshole.” Alex says, still angry, but slightly more calm.
“I know.” Jay says simply, taking another drink.
“Are you going to try to get him back?” Alex asks, taking a drink of her own beer.
“Yes, I still love him. I don't think he'll take me back, but I've got to try.” Jay says, scrubbing at his face with his hands, looking utterly miserable. Alex doesn't bother wasting her pity and sympathy on him, the cheating bastard. Nevertheless, she reaches out and rubs his back lightly, giving a little bit of comfort.
He sighs and looks up at her, tears shining brightly in those too blue eyes. Something inside of her aches for a moment as she remembers all the times they spent together, all the touches and kisses, smiles and laughter. Then it's gone, and she reminds herself sharply that she's got Paige and doesn't need Jay anymore. She won't say she never needed him because there was a time that she did, but it was long ago and the person that needs Jay now is Spinner, no matter how much he hates Jay right now, and she knows he does because she's been though this before with Jay, and also knows that Spinner will still love the jerk because some part of her that she keeps buried still loves him too.
“You can sleep here tonight, if you want.” Alex says abruptly, standing up and gathering their empty bottle from the coffee table.
“Thanks Alex.” He says quietly, another sigh escaping him. He knows he messed up, know he hurt Spinner, knows that Spinner probably really doesn't like him right now, and might not even love him anymore (but he won't dwell on that because that hurts too much to contemplate. He needs Spinner like he needs the air that he breathes. He can't live without either.) but he knows he's got to go back to Spinner and show him that he still loves him and show him exactly how sorry he is for cheating on him.
Alex throws a pillow and a blanket at him and he mumbles his thanks and she nods, walking down the short hallway to her bedroom. The door closes, but Jay can hear her opening drawers and getting ready for bed.
He lays down and tries to fall asleep. Instead all he can see behind his closed lids is the look on Spinner's face as he walks in the door and sees Jay on the couch with the girl, he can't remember her name anymore, and sees their clothes in a pile on the floor.
He hears the way Spinner's voice sounded so broken and hurt as he told Jay to get out and never come back. He didn't even yell. What haunts him most, though, is the hollow and flat look in Spinner's usually warm eyes. How cold they looked, as though he were dead. He might as well be. Jay stole his heart and then threw it away all for some girl who's name he can't even remember.
Tears make their way slowly and silently down his face. It so bad to think that he had put that look on Spinner's face. The only thing left to do was erase it.
Easier said than done, but he was determined to do it.
Spinner was his other half after all. He needs him like he needs oxygen.
He could only hope that Spinner could see that it was times like these that you learn to love again.