*grin* Babysteps
Ok so maybe I can take this whole, posting in a journal thing.. in babysteps. Twice in two weeks is more than I have done in a long time. Usually its months in between and I think going by SC's response to my recent post, she can vouch for that one.
So no New Hope last weekend. Why I even was insane enough to think THAT would go through is beyond me. I should know better. *shakes her head* I think I want to sleep the sleep of a thousand peeps. I just wanted to be goofy but seriously, I am extremely exhausted. Sleep has been eluding me quite a bit and its annoying the piss out of me. Husband and I have agreed that we are gonna start with the healthy food attempts again. We pretty much stopped after we moved back from El Paso. Though in our defense we do live in the same apartment as his mom and can't really control what food is where. I really do miss my apartment in El Paso. My brother was the bestest roomie ever. That kitchen was equally mine and his and I never felt like I was stepping into someone else's domain. It probably helped that we started from scratch there and didn't have to deal with someone's 20 year tupperware collection, among other things. I miss cooking and having as much space as I needed to prepare said food for cooking. I feel so claustrophobic in this kitchen here that I have lost much of the desire to cook a meal. On top of that, she has her boyfriend over about 3-4 days out of the week.
As mentioned before I do not care for this man, primarily because holding a conversation with him is akin to trying to talk to a brick. Nothing much happens and you feel stupid for having done so. His insight to the world is completely fucked up. This man is a total wuss when it comes to just about every aspect of his life.. including his health. Being around him for any length of time starts to enrage me. My husband's mother is a very smart woman and she has an awesome sense of humor. Much of both is lost on this man. I think he let himself be brainwashed so much into his religion, that he has lost all will to live. It is his lot in life. It's just God's way of punishing him. The man has said these things before many a time and I want to smash his head in. Mind you I easily get fed up with copout reasons like that. Each man is in charge of their own destiny. Knowing that you have medical problems and going to a doctor to get a REAL fix instead of shots that just allow you to keep going on without surgery, especially when the state of NY is paying for your medical, you'd think a person would seek said help before things got too serious. Oh no, not this man. On top of this. His own children wish for his death. Nice kids , huh? *shakes her head* I just think that husband's mom is better than this. She stays with him for.. companionship. Because he wont cheat on her. The man CAN'T cheat on her. Physically cannot cheat on her. Yep.. for that reason among others, I am not sure I could see much of any woman really wanting to be involved with him anyways.
I got to cut out a bit more of the excess drama in my life today. I left my World of Warcraft guild. Yay! *smirk* I feel liberated. ;) Anyways... I will not go into those details. Very stupid, anyhow.
I should get to sleep.
- Syn
So no New Hope last weekend. Why I even was insane enough to think THAT would go through is beyond me. I should know better. *shakes her head* I think I want to sleep the sleep of a thousand peeps. I just wanted to be goofy but seriously, I am extremely exhausted. Sleep has been eluding me quite a bit and its annoying the piss out of me. Husband and I have agreed that we are gonna start with the healthy food attempts again. We pretty much stopped after we moved back from El Paso. Though in our defense we do live in the same apartment as his mom and can't really control what food is where. I really do miss my apartment in El Paso. My brother was the bestest roomie ever. That kitchen was equally mine and his and I never felt like I was stepping into someone else's domain. It probably helped that we started from scratch there and didn't have to deal with someone's 20 year tupperware collection, among other things. I miss cooking and having as much space as I needed to prepare said food for cooking. I feel so claustrophobic in this kitchen here that I have lost much of the desire to cook a meal. On top of that, she has her boyfriend over about 3-4 days out of the week.
As mentioned before I do not care for this man, primarily because holding a conversation with him is akin to trying to talk to a brick. Nothing much happens and you feel stupid for having done so. His insight to the world is completely fucked up. This man is a total wuss when it comes to just about every aspect of his life.. including his health. Being around him for any length of time starts to enrage me. My husband's mother is a very smart woman and she has an awesome sense of humor. Much of both is lost on this man. I think he let himself be brainwashed so much into his religion, that he has lost all will to live. It is his lot in life. It's just God's way of punishing him. The man has said these things before many a time and I want to smash his head in. Mind you I easily get fed up with copout reasons like that. Each man is in charge of their own destiny. Knowing that you have medical problems and going to a doctor to get a REAL fix instead of shots that just allow you to keep going on without surgery, especially when the state of NY is paying for your medical, you'd think a person would seek said help before things got too serious. Oh no, not this man. On top of this. His own children wish for his death. Nice kids , huh? *shakes her head* I just think that husband's mom is better than this. She stays with him for.. companionship. Because he wont cheat on her. The man CAN'T cheat on her. Physically cannot cheat on her. Yep.. for that reason among others, I am not sure I could see much of any woman really wanting to be involved with him anyways.
I got to cut out a bit more of the excess drama in my life today. I left my World of Warcraft guild. Yay! *smirk* I feel liberated. ;) Anyways... I will not go into those details. Very stupid, anyhow.
I should get to sleep.
- Syn