just because some people don't cry, doesn't mean they're not suffering

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so apparently if you share your feelings with someone they dump you. see this is why i guard myself and not share anything with anyone. i'm done. done with this all. done with dating. done with guys. done with everything. maybe i'm jumping to conclusions, maybe i'm not. all i know is i went to Todd and told him my feelings and he broke up with me and said basically.. "I'll think about being with you again." you'll think about being with me..right. you don't get to hurt me and keep coming back. i told you i've been through this bullshit before and i'm not gonna go through it again. my heart cannot take it. i am not a punching bag. i'm done.

what made me angrier was he told me to listen to suspicious minds by elvis. don't fucking tell me to listen to anything. especially a song he wrote after he cheated on his wife but wanted to keep fucking other womean but also wanted to continue being married to her! oh and she has never remarried or had a successful relationship since elvis..because she says no man can compare to him. ya know what i'm sick of being accused of things i haven't and won't do. obviously you do not trust me. obviously we aren't right for each other. i mean when we were at the mall and your friend asked you what you were doing today most people respond with "hanging out with my girlfriend" not with "nothing" what am i to you? i mean seriously.

fuck fuck fuck. i'm sick of this. i wanted a man and got a boy.