Title: Secrets (Behind the Scenes) (part 1)
Author:
synful_trixxPairing/Character: Logan/Veronica (Logan POV)
Rating: NC-17 (Eventually)
Summary: It started with a secret that spiralled her life out of control, but not everything was what it seemed.
Spoilers/Warnings: Eventually there will be spoilers for season two, but not as of yet. Spoilers for the complete first season. The fic will eventually be NC-17 for sexual content.
Word Count: 3974
Any Author's Notes: This part is from Logan’s POV. Totally a departure from the norm for me. I don't do dialogue! Thanks to
cinaminsweet for the beta!
Previous Parts I’d driven back from TJ early. I’d wanted to see her. I found both of them at the Pep Squad car wash, dressed in skimpy shorts, bouncing along to the music. Those white shorts left absolutely nothing to the imagination.
I’m not sure when I realised how much she meant to me, how much she couldn’t ever be to me. She wasn’t mine, could never really be. She belonged to the world at large, to the Kanes, to every damn person that wasn’t me.
It didn’t stop me from wanting her though. I took a pen out of the glove-compartment along with a torn piece of notebook paper and started writing, glancing up every so often to watch the gentle swish of her blonde hair. The way it glinted in the sunlight as it fell softly down her back.
I wrote how beautiful she was, how much I wanted her, how I dreamed of her every night in my bed. The words flowing from me as I described how I wanted her there with me, under me, her soft body clenching around mine.
I glanced up and knew I’d never give it to her. How could I? Sweet little innocent Veronica Mars would never understand. Would never reciprocate my feelings. She was Duncan’s and Lilly’s, and I was Lilly’s creature.
I folded the note up gently and put it in the glove-compartment with the pen before slamming it closed. Starting my SUV I glanced over once more, seeing that Lilly was gone, and Veronica was getting into her Dad’s squad car.
Time to head over to Duncan’s for some quality game time.
~~~
We’d been gaming for a few hours when Lilly cornered me coming out of the bathroom. Not much Lilly did surprised me anymore but the words that came out of her mouth actually did manage to surprise me.
“I know your secret Logan Echolls.” She smiled the kittenish smile that had melted my knees on many occasion, but failed to do so now.
“What secret is that?” I quirked my eyebrow for good measure, it never paid to show Lilly your hand too early.
“You want Veronica. In a more than friendly manner.” I tried not to show my surprise but the triumph on her face told me I’d failed miserably.
“And how did you come to this stunning conclusion?” She was pressed up against the front of me like a second skin. My lack of reaction must have been glaringly obvious, cause she began to move her hips against mine.
“Come on Logan? Knee socks? Dead give away, besides, you forget I actually DO know you.” Lilly laughed. Laughed from the soles of her feet right up through her mouth. She thought she was so smart.
“What are you going to do about it?” My voice came out low as I gently grabbed her arms pushing her away, and put some distance between us.
“Why Logan. I’m going to help you land my best friend.” You could have knocked me over with a feather. The pleased expression on her face, the cat that ate the canary.
Lilly was always surprising the hell out of me. I should have been used to it by now.
~~~
Lilly had been at Veronica’s earlier. She’d told Veronica secret number one. They might be sisters for real. Lilly explained that Veronica was absolutely devastated and had refused to hear the second secret. The one we’d come up with. Lilly was going to tell Veronica that I had a crush on her. Apparently the time was not now.
At least I now knew why Duncan had broken up with her. God. Adultery and incest, our lives were becoming more like a soap opera, my parents would be so proud.
“So we’ll give her some time to adjust to the idea of her maybe being my sister, then I’ll spring the secret on her. We’ve got to wait for the right moment. Veronica… well Veronica’s more stubborn than people give her credit for.” Lilly smiled her devious little smile, the one I’d seen on too many occasions when she thought she was smarter than everyone else. Trouble was, she usually was.
“She’s never going to fall for it. There’s no way. She doesn’t like me like THAT Lilly. She’s still hung up on Duncan.” I almost felt pathetic. Needing my ex-girlfriend to help me snag a new girlfriend. What happened to my infamous Echolls charm?
“How can she resist the fabulousness of Logan Echolls? No one can resist you for long… except maybe me. Cause I’m twice as fabulous as you are.” She smirked at me over the rim of her coffee cup.
I couldn’t help but laugh. Lilly was nothing if not confident.
“So we’ll wait until she’s had time to adjust and then what? Ambush her? Drop the bombshell? Kidnap her and tie her naked to my bed?” I snarked back at her. There was absolutely no way this was going to work.
“Nope. We’ll play passive aggressive. She’s a sucker for that. Remember she dated Donut?” Lilly laughed outright now at the shocked look on my face.
“You know Lillian Kane? This plan of yours might actually work.” I could hear my bemused tone of voice and had to laugh at myself. I’d never get over the deviousness of my ex-girlfriend’s brain.
“Of course it’ll work. Duh. I’m like, totally smart.” She smiled then, a pure joyous smile, and I remembered why I’d fallen in love with her in the first place.
“And then you’ll be happy, Veronica won’t leave, and I… I get to have my single sexy fun I’ve been not having while she’s been crying all over my shoulder.” She smirked again, and I remembered why I didn’t love her anymore. Lilly Kane always had her own best interests at heart.
~~~
Shelly Pomroy’s party and the time was now. I’d received my marching orders from Lilly. Sit, drink a lot, and stare. Something I definitely could manage, except I was nervous. What if she totally freaked out? What if she hooked up with some random guy? What if she tried to hook up with Duncan, damn the consequences.
At least Lilly had taken care of the Duncan equation. She’d hooked Duncan up with a freshman. A really, really easy freshman. Duncan was sure to get some, Veronica was sure to see, as Lilly had said she was going to point Duncan’s drunken groping out to Veronica.
This whole thing was totally going to backfire on all of us.
They were here and heading towards the bar, Lilly smiled in my direction as she tugged Veronica along, giving me a small nod to let me know everything was a go. There was no way this was going to work.
Lilly and Veronica were on the make-shift dance floor now, after having grabbed a couple of drinks. They’d barely even noticed they’d butted in between Dick and the Beav. Veronica glanced in my direction and I did my best to stare intensely as Lilly had instructed me. I wanted to shake my head. Stop doing what Lilly told me to do… but there was no way I was going to win Veronica on my own. I knew nothing about sweet girls.
Lilly smiled and pulled Veronica back against her, pushing her around until Lilly’s chin rested on Veronica’s shoulder. I could feel my cock harden, straining against the zipper of my pants. Who wouldn’t get turned on seeing two totally hot chicks grinding on each other.
Veronica looked left, towards where Duncan was being mauled by the freshman, I watched her face fall, her eyes fill up with tears, she quickly downed the drink still in her hand, and then she did what I was afraid of. She grabbed someone and kissed the hell out of him. No wait. She grabbed DICK and kissed the hell out of him. I was halfway out of my seat before I could stop myself.
I watched her face, she barely looked at Dick, I’m pretty certain she didn’t know who she kissed. From the way Dick’s face had lit up I’m pretty certain she’d made his night. He walked away towards the bar, presumably to get her a drink… or a tray full of drinks.
It was definitely going to be a long night.
~~~
It felt like hours later when I felt her gaze on me again. I opened my eyes and continued staring. There was a tower of shot glasses in front of me. I had to pass the time somehow. She whispered in Lilly’s ear and I saw Lilly look in my direction. I knew the time was now.
Lilly was laughing uproariously as Veronica’s whole body stiffened. Lilly spoke some more, I watched her lips move and I knew she was mentioning the knee socks. Almost the exact words she’d used when she’d confronted me. She covered her mouth and continued to giggle.
Veronica turned in what seemed like slow motion to stare at me. I simply stared back. She ran. Out the doors, feet stumbling under her in her drunkenness. The look of devastation on her face breaking my heart.
She really didn’t like me. There was no way. No way this was going to work.
I tried to keep track of her, but she managed to avoid Lilly and I for most of the party. Someone mentioned they’d seen her out by the pool, so I made my way out to find her. Maybe if I talked to her I could salvage the situation.
She was laying in a patio lounge chair by the pool. Dick standing behind her, Sean on her lap whispering to her. Dick was attempting to pour shots into her mouth, laughing drunkenly as most of it dribbled across her lips and down her chin.
I heard her whisper Lilly’s name and knew it was time to step in. There was no way Veronica would willingly do body shots. It felt good sending my fist into the side of Sean’s face, knocking him away from her. Dick shouted but I refused to respond.
I gently picked her up, arm under her knees as she let out a soft drunken noise that sounded suspiciously like wheeee.
“You, Ms. Mars, are seriously trashed.” I laughed at her as I carried her back inside Shelly’s house. Quickly finding an empty guest bedroom I laid her gently down on the bed.
“Logan…” Her voice is so soft I can barely hear her. I lean in closer, trying to hear what she’s trying to say when she sticks her tongue out at me.
“I can’t read the words Veronica. Put your tongue back in your mouth and go to sleep.” I can’t help but laugh at how adorable she is. She surprisingly does as I say. Falling into a drunken slumber.
There’s no way she’ll be comfortable sleeping in that tight white dress. It’s a good thing I have experience undressing unconscious girls. Lilly taught me well.
I quickly and efficiently remove her dress, tossing it haphazardly to the floor. I pull the covers out from underneath her and tuck her in, covers up to her chin so that no skin is showing. I’m turning towards the door when I catch sight of Lilly.
“Dick drugged her. Well technically Dick drugged both of us. GHB I’d say from the type of high. You might want to stay with her.” Lilly shrugged as I glanced back at a drugged Veronica.
“I’m going to kill him.” My teeth were clenched so hard my jaw ached.
“Not yet, you’re not. What you’re going to do right now is get undressed. Get under the covers, and cuddle Veronica Mars until she wakes up in the morning. You’re going to keep her safe and make sure Dick doesn’t come in here to take advantage of the situation. Now be a good boy Logan.” She smirked at me, typical Lilly smirk. “I’ll deal with Dick.”
She was out the door and gone before I’d made up my mind. I turned back to Veronica, gently brushing my thumb down her cheek. I stared up at the ceiling for a moment before I started removing my clothes.
It was going to be a very, very, very long night.
I crawled under the covers, pulling Veronica back against me. Groaning at the feel of her silken skin against my own. I hardened even more in my boxers, my cock nestled between the cheeks of her ass. She pressed back against me, and I stifled the urge to thrust. Reminding my body Veronica was unconscious.
It didn’t listen.
~~~
I lay awake for hours just holding her. I’m not really sure when I fell asleep. I vaguely remember her telling me she had to pee. Typical Veronica. I let her go, and rolled away, falling quickly back to sleep. When I woke up she was gone. The only trace of her was her perfume on the pillow next to mine.
Wasn’t exactly what I was expecting. Veronica to pull a disappearing act. Didn’t seem like her at all.
I got dressed slowly, plotting my revenge against Dick for the drugging of the night before. Lilly I could understand. But Veronica. Everyone knew how sheltered she was. Everyone knew she wouldn’t be able to handle GHB. There was no way I could let Dick get away with that.
Out the door into the late afternoon sunshine. I also needed to call Lilly and let her know what had happened. She’d have some good ideas on how to deal with Dick.
If she hadn’t already.
~~~
“We have to do SOMETHING Lilly! We can’t just let him get away with this!” My voice was loud; I knew I was close to shouting. I could feel my face getting all red, the vein in my temple starting to throb.
“Jesus Logan, keep your voice down. Of course we’re going to do something. It’s just not the right time right now.” Lilly sat casually on the couch, lounging, as if the world owed her something.
“I’m sorry for yelling, but it just seems… don’t you care at all?” I lowered my voice, but couldn’t quite keep the anger out of it. Sometimes Lilly was a self-centred bitch.
“Of course I care dorkwad! Sheesh! Veronica needs to be able to get in on it. I have my plans. You can make yours, but we do nothing until Veronica knows exactly what happened.” Lilly’s self satisfied smile made my stomach turn.
“Right. Veronica Mars extract revenge on Dick Casablancas? And will we both be bringing ice skates? Since hell will freeze over first!” My voice got a little louder and I struggled with my control.
“Trust me Logan. Veronica isn’t as sweet as everyone thinks. She’s the daughter of a Sheriff, she has a devious mind, just wait, you’ll see.” Lilly laughed at my dumbfounded expression.
Veronica Mars? Devious? Yah right, that’ll be the day.
~~~
Veronica is avoiding me. An entire month of her being everywhere I wasn’t. I had to admit to myself that Lilly was right; Veronica did have a devious mind, cunning too.
Lilly had called me last night to tell me about Veronica’s new clothes, her new hair, she’d warned me what time they were going to be at the school, giving me detailed instructions on where to be and when.
I couldn’t believe I was listening to Lilly Kane.
I turned the corner at the exact moment Lilly had told me to, bumping into Veronica and catching her arms before she fell. She was staring at me with those deer in the headlight eyes.
“Well, well Veronica. Playing dress up in Lilly’s big girl clothes?” I forced the words out of my mouth, tucking my tongue into the side of my cheek and smiled. I mentally kicked myself as I watched the hurt quickly flit across her face. Stupid Echolls.
“Run along Logan. Veronica doesn’t have time to play with you today.” Lilly smirked before pulling Veronica away. I couldn’t take my eyes off her as she walked away.
I could hear Lilly’s words as they walked away. “Told you, Veronica Mars. He’s staring at your ass as we speak. Checking out the hotness that is you.” Lilly grinned at Veronica, smile spreading ear to ear. Thank you Lilly, for pointing out what an idiot I am.
Veronica glanced casually back at me, a sidelong glance over her shoulder, one I knew I wasn’t meant to see. I couldn’t take my eyes off of her, so our eyes met briefly when she looked back. It was enough, apparently, as her head snapped back towards her locker.
I was still standing in the middle of the hallway staring at her as she and Lilly walked away. I finally managed to shake myself out of my trance and headed towards homeroom.
Today was going to be a very long day.
~~~
With the help of Lilly I’d managed to stalk my way through the first half of the day. Every time Veronica turned around I’d been there. I could see the scared look in her eyes. She wasn’t able to avoid me and it was driving her nuts.
I’d lost her in study hall. She’d phoned her father, played sick and left me in the dust. Veronica Mars had outwitted me once again. She always seemed to be one step ahead of me. It was starting to look like I’d have to play down and dirty. Lilly style.
“I have no idea what I’m going to do. Intense isn’t working. Passive aggressive isn’t working. Nothing’s working Lilly!” I couldn’t keep the frustration out of my voice as I paced back and forth in the Kane living room. Lilly once again lounged against the back of the couch, totally at ease.
“Calm down Logan. Things aren’t totally a wash yet. Let me talk to her, sort things out.” Lilly’s tongue came out to lick along her lower lip. I’d seen her do it before; it wasn’t always a good thing.
“Sort what out? She’s running, always running lately. The morning after Shelly’s party, the past month, today, it’s just one more sprint for the finish line!” I took a deep breath to calm my frustrations. “We just have to accept the fact that this isn’t going to work Lilly. Veronica Mars is smarter than us.” My head jerked up when Lilly let out a full-throated laugh.
“You’ll just have to beat her to the finish line. When in doubt of your ability to win, cheat.” Lilly smirked, as she picked up her cell phone.
“Hi Mrs. Mars! Can I speak to Veronica please?” Lilly absently tapped her fingers on her knees as I stood there in shock. What the hell was Lilly up too?
“Veronica Mars! You DITCHED ME!” Lilly’s voice echoed shrilly in the room, I couldn’t help but flinch. I had to do a double take to realise that Lilly was smiling as she berated Veronica across the phone lines.
I watched as Lilly listened intently. I couldn’t help but feel like I was intruding, so I started to back out of the room, but Lilly shook her head quickly and motioned me to sit. Lilly commanded and I listened. Still her boy after all of this. Old habits were really hard to break.
“You’re feeling just fine Veronica Mars. You chickened out. You ran scared of Logan Echolls and we both know it.” Lilly’s voice was smug. I watched the play of emotions across her face as she listened to whatever Veronica was saying. She met my eyes and winked.
“Exactly. Logan is scary. So between you and me? We’re gonna find a way to scare him Veronica Mars.” I raised my eyebrows. I couldn’t help it. Scare me? This was the master plan?
“Oh Veronica. You know you’re already fabulous, but you’ll never be as fabulous as me. Use your own strengths. Now as for Logan, this is what I think we should do. You’re going to ask him out.” She paused for a second; I knew my eyebrows were in my hairline.
“Stop freaking out Veronica Mars! You’re going to ask him out. You’re going to do it in such a way that he can’t refuse.” I could just make out Veronica’s shrieking voice over the phone, she must be yelling pretty loudly at Lilly for it to come across that clear.
“No. You’re going to ask him out, and then you’re going to take him for dinner with your parents. Veronica. Veronica Mars! Shut up for a minute! It’ll work. Of course it’ll work. Logan won’t see it coming. You’ve been avoiding him for over a month now, just walk right up to him in the middle of the hallway, press against him, get him all hot, and then you’re going to tell him what time to pick you up.” Veronica’s voice had gotten really quiet, so quiet I couldn’t hear her anymore.
“Seven, yes I realise that’s what time you normally eat dinner. Yes I realise Logan would have to be at your parents. Yes Veronica! I know that is… ah you got it now.” Lilly smirked and gave me a thumbs up, I was now convinced that Lilly was in fact an evil genius.
She quickly hung up the phone after getting Veronica to agree to the plan. “Don’t screw this up genius. Act surprised when she walks up to you in the hallway. Don’t let it go too far, let her play it her way.” Lilly gracefully rose from the couch, unfolding like a cat after a long nights sleep.
“I’m not a complete idiot Lilly, I’m pretty sure I can’t screw up acting surprised.” I smirked back at Lilly. Sometimes she underestimated me too. Veronica Mars didn’t know what she was up against.
~~~
I’d seen Veronica enter the school earlier, just as I was getting out of the Xterra, she and Lilly had walked through the doors in a rush. I’d hurried, trying to keep up, only managing to see them disappear into the girl’s room. They’d been in there ever since, half an hour in the bathroom. What the hell were they doing in there?
I didn’t dare smile when I saw Veronica finally exit the washroom. Her shoulders were stiff, determination on her face. God she was cute when she was shoring herself up for something she really didn’t want to do.
She headed towards her locker, spotted me and bypassed it. Apparently the time was now. I didn’t even have to act surprised, this was NOT Veronica Mars walking towards me. Slinking towards me. I could vaguely hear the wolf whistles sounding around the hall as she slinked her way towards me. This was not Veronica Mars, it was Lilly version 2.0.
She pressed herself against me and I couldn’t help but draw in a deep breath, she smelled like marshmallows, soft and gooey with just a hint of sweetness around the edges. My head fell back against the locker with a soft clang as she pressed closer, you couldn’t fit a sheet of paper between us now.
Veronica pressed in, sliding her leg against mine as her hand moves up my chest to gently grasp my neck. I felt my mouth drop open in shock. I couldn’t believe this was Veronica, sweet Princess Veronica Mars pressed against me like a wonton.
“You. Me. Tonight. Pick me up at seven.” She breathed out against my ear before placing a light kiss on my earlobe. I nodded against her, and she was gone. Marching back to her locker, my eyes on her the whole way. Looks like I had a date tonight.
Boy was Veronica in for a surprise.