dont even say goodbye.

[synesthetichate]

i hate doing things that make people hurt, mad, sad, miserable or anything like that. i hate not fully understanding what i did to make them feel that way. i hate not knowing if i can fix it, if i fixed it, if its even worth fixing.
i hate being sad all the time. i hate that nobody tries to figure me out.
/sigh.
i hate myself most of the time.

i'm going to set up a doctors appointment for friday.