Foxxie has a real life story to tell, oh noes. Hopefully people learn from it though.
Saying you're sorry does not always make up for past transgressions. The saying actions speak louder than words actually does have meaning. Foxxie has recently had experience with this so Foxxie has a tale to tell and hopefully some learn. The only reason Foxxie is speaking of this is because Foxxie needs to get it off of her chest and she hopes that people learn from it because that would make her happy. -
When Foxxie was in high school [in a not to distant past] she had very few friends and was [and still is] a computer nerd [obviously as she is going to school for information systems security]. The few friends she did have she thought were real friends of "high moral fiber."
Foxxie was dead wrong.
One of Foxxie's friends was dating a much older man, and when she says much older she means much older. Her friend was 16 and the man was 30; while this may seem odd, disgusting [and illegal, but we'll not go there] it was not. The man really, really loved Foxxie's friend. He was going to as for her hand in marriage and was going to go so far as to ask her friend's daddy for permission to do so. He had a ring and even came to visit a few times [though Foxxie's friend did not tell her daddy (her mummy knew)].
But then Foxxie's friend found another person she thought she really liked and decided to date this boy [of 17 years] behind the man's back.
Now the man was a very kind gentleman of the South, very respectful. Foxxie did not like lying about this to the man because she was friends with the man too and Foxxie was raised not to keep things like this. She weighed the consequences of her actions and decided after a few weeks to tell the man that her friend was seeing someone behind his back.
He was angry at first and confronted the girl on the phone [that he bought her so her daddy would not find out, her mummy knew about it, it was very expensive too... and iPhone with all the perks]. She lied and said Foxxie was not telling the truth and then she confronted Foxxie. For the first time in high school Foxxie nearly came to blows with someone [on campus, with cameras]. She told her friend that what she was doing was wrong and she should not be treating the kind man like this. She said that if her friend wanted to see the boy [of 17 years] then her friend should break up with the man [because the man was a very good man and needed to be able to move on].
Her friend refused and said that if Foxxie ever spoke to the man again then bad stuff would happen; she then went and told many people lies about Foxxie and the only reason she did not tell Foxxie's parents that she was bisexual was because Foxxie went below the belt and threatened to tell the [former] friend's daddy about the man. Foxxie's [former] friend lied so well that she managed to make the man believe her and the man said all sorts of mean and hurtful things to Foxxie [she almost considered suicide with how she was treated by former friends].
A year passed and many things were stressful until Senior year came about and the man came to visit for a pre-graduation thing. He saw Foxxie's friend all over the boy [of 17 years] and was heart broken. He went back to the South and called Foxxie one night [her mummy answered, Foxxie had to spin many lies with a golden tongue because she was scared her former friend would tell her parents she was not straight]. Her mummy learned many things and then Foxxie went to speak to the man on the phone in private. He went on and on about how he was sorry for all the things he said to Foxxie and Foxxie felt her stomach twist really badly. She begged the kind man not to do anything stupid because the kind man sounded really sad and desperate. He told her of the plan he had originally... that there was an engagement ring under the passenger seat of her [former] friend's car. He was going to propose to her when he saw her all over the boy [of 17]. She was heart broken for the man but kept telling him not to do anything stupid and she was scared but couldn't do anything because she was a teenager and afraid her parents would find out. It was stupid but she was scared.
He promised her that he wouldn't do anything stupid and that he would text her the day after - which he did.
A week went on and they texted lots and lots.
But then one day the texting stopped...
And she was really worried and tried texting him and calling him and emailing him. But after a while she gave up. Days later the man's friend called on the man's phone... the man had been in an accident. He was driving drunk, trying to drown away his sorrows at having lost who he thought was his soul mate. The girl he refused to touch until their wedding day because he was a gentleman. The man's friend said the gentleman was in a coma and the doctors didn't think he was going to wake up.
But the heartbreaking part was that the man's friend told her the man was calling out her [former] friend's name on occasion. Mumbling it.
She was brought to tears in her UW English class during break. She had to speak to the [former] friend... and tell her that the man was hurt... but when she told her the [former] friend said she didn't care.
Then the girl's daddy found out and Foxxie's [former] friend told her daddy that the man was a stalker [but Foxxie knew better and still didn't tell because Foxxie was a coward and a stupid teenager].
The man got better and Foxxie was relieved and kept in contact with the man for a very long time afterwards but then more of Foxxie's friends [people she thought were friends] started to go away and turn their backs on her.
Then she got to college and made new friends; when she got a Facebook she was going to add someone she still thought was her friend and got a very cryptic message:
i cnt add u coz of shit dat wnt dwn. am still livn n [small town, usa] n dun wana loose friends i got
Foxxie was devastated and cried lots [something Foxxie rarely does]; of all the friends she thought she had only one remained and that friend doesn't live in small town, USA anymore. Foxxie was an outcast in small town, USA, she could not compete with her [former] friend who was also a very prominent member there [read: the equivalent of a pageant queen]. People thought Foxxie was horrid and sided with some pervert.
That day Foxxie's life was unknowingly saved by a few people online whom she cherishes lots and lots today, because they cheered her up even though they didn't know she was sad and contemplating suicide [because she doesn't like to bother people with things - she cheers people up not the other way around].
So back to the moral of the story -
A few weeks back the friend who sent Foxxie that message sent her a text like everything was normal:
u wanna go c hp7 wit me and [insert a persons name here]?
Foxxie was outraged and nearly broke her phone. She said:
No, I do not wish to see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows pt.1 with you. I am going with friends to see the premiere.
He had the gall to ask:
wut wit u?
Foxxie replied as calmly as she could:
I am going to hang out and see the movie with friends who stick by my side.
And ended the conversation; she was going to see HP7 [not that it is important] with the girl who stayed by her side as her friend. She even bought her a ticket already, weeks prior.
Back on track -
The boy said to her that he was sorry but that was all. She couldn't find it in herself to believe him and she didn't want to go back to that sad place. Foxxie is happy today that her friends online cheered her up enough not to make her go away; for some reason though, she cannot help but think that at that point, if the people she once called friends knew they were hurting her so much with their vicious words and rumors they wouldn't have cared.
What Foxxie is trying to say is:
Saying sorry doesn't mean anything. It's your actions that do.