Hi guys...
Holy crap, has it really been this long?
It's been really really weird, this past month. My library membership has expired and the money for next year is hard to sacrifice cause the past couple of months have been kinda hard to piece together.
One of my cats disappeared and that makes me so miserable cause he was one of my three musketeers (Athos) and his brothers miss him so much. It's really sad to watch, them moping around house and the garden, searching for him..
My brain has been acting really strangely lately. Many ideas for stories but no drive to grab a pen and write it down. I have everything composed in my head, but writing it down...like pulling teeth. But exactly when I was ready to give up and stop trying it got better. ^_^
But it's not all bad. I cleared some things in my head about myself, who I am and my family. There are ups and downs, mostly related to my relationship with my mom. She suffers from depression and my own downs are mostly a reflection of her own when she can't get out of bed or is indifferent to everything. It's hard, taking care of her in that state of mind, especially since it's only a development of recent few years and it's the complete opposite of who she was as a person. It's all made worse by out financial situation, but the entire country is in a bad situation so there's not much to be done about it.
I've started writing a journal again, something I've not done since high school and it helps. It really really helps to scream at something, even in writing.
The summer is officially over. No more flip flops and the blankets needed to be pulled out of the closet, but I love this time of year, when everything is kind of in the middle and it's not too hot. We had near three months of drought and the leaves and grasss were completely fried but after the first rain two weeks ago it all looks as if it's spring again.
But the most important thing tonight is the Arena Ice Fever. Now, Croatia is not big on hockey, but we have a good club Medvescak in the EBEL League and tonight they are playing in a 12000 year old Arena, right next to the sea and it's awesome. I wanted to go, but...
If you're interested - http://www.erstebankliga.at/8f234634abc92fd30763c1e63b89d9bf.html?arrSave[ArticleID]=8398
I have been away for long and there are so many posts I wanted to comment on and missed and will take me a long time to catch up so if there's anything that I've missed and you think I should know drop me a line. ^_^
It's been really really weird, this past month. My library membership has expired and the money for next year is hard to sacrifice cause the past couple of months have been kinda hard to piece together.
One of my cats disappeared and that makes me so miserable cause he was one of my three musketeers (Athos) and his brothers miss him so much. It's really sad to watch, them moping around house and the garden, searching for him..
My brain has been acting really strangely lately. Many ideas for stories but no drive to grab a pen and write it down. I have everything composed in my head, but writing it down...like pulling teeth. But exactly when I was ready to give up and stop trying it got better. ^_^
But it's not all bad. I cleared some things in my head about myself, who I am and my family. There are ups and downs, mostly related to my relationship with my mom. She suffers from depression and my own downs are mostly a reflection of her own when she can't get out of bed or is indifferent to everything. It's hard, taking care of her in that state of mind, especially since it's only a development of recent few years and it's the complete opposite of who she was as a person. It's all made worse by out financial situation, but the entire country is in a bad situation so there's not much to be done about it.
I've started writing a journal again, something I've not done since high school and it helps. It really really helps to scream at something, even in writing.
The summer is officially over. No more flip flops and the blankets needed to be pulled out of the closet, but I love this time of year, when everything is kind of in the middle and it's not too hot. We had near three months of drought and the leaves and grasss were completely fried but after the first rain two weeks ago it all looks as if it's spring again.
But the most important thing tonight is the Arena Ice Fever. Now, Croatia is not big on hockey, but we have a good club Medvescak in the EBEL League and tonight they are playing in a 12000 year old Arena, right next to the sea and it's awesome. I wanted to go, but...
If you're interested - http://www.erstebankliga.at/8f234634abc92fd30763c1e63b89d9bf.html?arrSave[ArticleID]=8398
I have been away for long and there are so many posts I wanted to comment on and missed and will take me a long time to catch up so if there's anything that I've missed and you think I should know drop me a line. ^_^