well here it is
a place I can fall apart and get my thought out without people noticing. hurrah. well here I am. giant f up. don't care about making it through the day anymore. kind of just want to sleep. I don't want to eat, I don't want to get out of bed, don't want to see people. this is the worst I've ever been, but I made it this way. She'll be better off without me. Lacuna.