.love.
why love got to be so hard? last night things with Deshaun and i took a turn for the worst. i dunno about anything anymore. i think i'ma just chill and go do me for a while until i find somebody i can be fa real with. i wanted to be with Deshaun but we had so many fall outs and there were so many doubts and reasons that would just pop into my mind when i thought about an 'us'. regardless of all the shit me and him have been thru i will always love him and he'll be mad special to me but maybe we were'nt meant to be in a 'couple' like relationship together. then again if we were.. God will work fate and have us end up together. .shrugz. who knows. all i know is i'ma just chill out on this love thang and try not puttin my heart into shit anymore. Ronni is finally out here but ever since he came back we've done nothing but fight so.. only God knows where that's headed. Ant and i are coo` though. ever since we got into our lil fight he's came back and been nothing but sweet to me. anyway it's early so i'ma go watch som bet and chilax. i'll holla-