Im Finding Out The Good Book Was Wrong
so everythings madd crazy. we have to be out of the apartment by feb. 1st. - not gunna happen.
im not ready for any of this. im completely terrified of wuts gunna happen now. i cant stand anything, i wish i would wake up n see mom sittin in the kitchen reading her book and asking me about my nite.
i give up on everything. and when i say i give up. i mean im done. im not gunna try anymore cuz its a waste. i kno that now. n when i say everything i mean every aspect of my life. ill do just enough to get by and no more bcuz like i said, its a waste to actually try. no one appreciates it or acknowledges it or even reciprocates so y bother.
dustin comes home from florida 2morrow n im stoked about that cuz hes been gone for wut seems like 4ever (but actually only like 2 weeks). justina is going thru crap n it pisses me off that i cant do anything to help her except be there for her. so im just being there for her n i hope it helps her in wutever decisions she needs to make.
mark...wut to say about that. idk wut to say about it. idk wut to say about us. friends??-idk. maybe in the future sumthing more???-idk.
like i said...i give up.
and as for God and faith...fuck it. bcuz if this is sum test of faith or wutever the fuck u wanna call it...i guess i failed. u win. i dont care ne more.
oh, n one last thing for those of u out there who have said, or r going to say, that God is watching over us...GO TO HELL. if He was, we wouldnt be in the position. so shut the fuck up n go preach to sum other choir cuz im done listening.
im not ready for any of this. im completely terrified of wuts gunna happen now. i cant stand anything, i wish i would wake up n see mom sittin in the kitchen reading her book and asking me about my nite.
i give up on everything. and when i say i give up. i mean im done. im not gunna try anymore cuz its a waste. i kno that now. n when i say everything i mean every aspect of my life. ill do just enough to get by and no more bcuz like i said, its a waste to actually try. no one appreciates it or acknowledges it or even reciprocates so y bother.
dustin comes home from florida 2morrow n im stoked about that cuz hes been gone for wut seems like 4ever (but actually only like 2 weeks). justina is going thru crap n it pisses me off that i cant do anything to help her except be there for her. so im just being there for her n i hope it helps her in wutever decisions she needs to make.
mark...wut to say about that. idk wut to say about it. idk wut to say about us. friends??-idk. maybe in the future sumthing more???-idk.
like i said...i give up.
and as for God and faith...fuck it. bcuz if this is sum test of faith or wutever the fuck u wanna call it...i guess i failed. u win. i dont care ne more.
oh, n one last thing for those of u out there who have said, or r going to say, that God is watching over us...GO TO HELL. if He was, we wouldnt be in the position. so shut the fuck up n go preach to sum other choir cuz im done listening.