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I have discovered that it's so much easier not to give a shit about stuff. Phew. The relief is enormous.
I'm guilty of being one of those people who feels everything - and so deeply. It's a hundred times worse with pregnancy hormones thrown into the mix. The other day, I was watching The Real World - New Orleans (shut up) and there was a group hug at the end. I started bawling.
Pathetic.
But beyond my incomprehensible reaction to reality tv, I know that I'm a full-feeler. I love hard, I cry hard, I care hard - I pay an enormous emotional tax, sometimes with my mental health, sometimes with my body, for feeling everything so deeply. I've often thought that it was a good attribute. The world needs people who care, right? I'm starting to think maybe not. Maybe it's far healthier (and far more logical) to keep most things at arm's length and only allow them minimal, if any, attention.
And while I'll continue to be enraged and passionate about injustice, I think the rest of it is a waste of time. No one benefits from it, most certainly not me.
I'm guilty of being one of those people who feels everything - and so deeply. It's a hundred times worse with pregnancy hormones thrown into the mix. The other day, I was watching The Real World - New Orleans (shut up) and there was a group hug at the end. I started bawling.
Pathetic.
But beyond my incomprehensible reaction to reality tv, I know that I'm a full-feeler. I love hard, I cry hard, I care hard - I pay an enormous emotional tax, sometimes with my mental health, sometimes with my body, for feeling everything so deeply. I've often thought that it was a good attribute. The world needs people who care, right? I'm starting to think maybe not. Maybe it's far healthier (and far more logical) to keep most things at arm's length and only allow them minimal, if any, attention.
And while I'll continue to be enraged and passionate about injustice, I think the rest of it is a waste of time. No one benefits from it, most certainly not me.