WELL this was a ride from start to finish! (i didn't see it was 7 parts and started reading it before work and then realised somewhere near the beginning of part 2 that i really had to go aha) it starts off and i'm thinking inter-office romance with some mental games played and then i read on and on and it just kind of like. splintered into a million pieces and oh god it hurt in the pit of my belly but- strangely, out of the 'rich guys', jackson seemed like the most decent. at least he didn't try to drug or OTHERWISE POISON JAEBUM HDU someone (as far as is explored in this story anyway)
i just... I DON'T HAVE WORDS TO EXPRESS EVEYTHING I'M FEELING, EVERYTHING THIS STORY MADE ME FEEL AND THINK AND JUST. i don't have words.
at least it was a happy-ish ending. and by that i mean they got away bc dear god the rich guys are all skeevy af
ahahaha cries yes this was a distressingly long fic ;A; cries i hope it was the good kind of hurt! omg you noticed that ;A; tbh i wanted to make it seem like bambam's situation was a watered-down version of yugyeom's, because jackson was merely copying what jaebum was doing without actually being aware of the motivation and intentions behind his actions, so when it occurred to him how hurt bambam might get from this lifestyle (after the poison) he sort of backed off and just let him go home ahaha T.T i'm sorry this part wasn't conveyed well enough cries ;A;
(yes jaebum is a poop here im sorry)
cries i hope all that occurred in the good way T.T /fans you/ thank you so much for this comment it gave me life cries
(skeevy rich guys thank you for the description such apt much accurate)
apparently in my lack of words last night i failed to mention THAT IT WAS VERY GOOD AND YES ALL THE ABOVE WAS IN THE GOOD AWAY i mean it was also in the i'm-about-to-turn-communist-jfc kind of way but like. it was really good
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crIES IT ALL JUST GOT BETTER your comments give me life how is this possible
omg cries yeah i put the warnings there because tbh i haven't found one longfic on lj without sex and i think it'd kind of put people off to sit through something this long without smut but cries ok (a) i can't write it to save my life and (b) i felt like i had to emphasise on the purity of their relationship? and i can't believe you caught that omg like i didn't expect anyone to see the thing with mark (i didn't want to go too deep into it because i think i'd traumatise myself ;A;) and cries yes thank you for understanding ;A; <333
(don't worry when they go back to korea bambam lives with yugyeom "out of convenience" and yeah things go along the road from there)
about you not going in too deep with the mark thing like- it actually makes sense? what with jaebum's disregard, it would never have solidified really- like. yugyeom never got the confirmation and agreement that yes, something happened to him, yes he was violated, there were no consequences, he has to face this guy on the regular, like if he were to talk about it, i'd actually be surprised- the only way i think he'd be able to cope is to just- pretend like it didn't happen. or- pretend like he doesn't remember. tbh the mere fact that yugyeom didn't want to talk about it gave away what happened. his coping mechanism and how it must have affected him afterwards is something that i'm sitting here going i'd be interested in that, that would make a good read (or even a- not a /fun/ write, but a satisfying (??? not really but idk what word to use rn) exercise) but like. yeah
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mm omg wow you managed to phrase it so well ;A; cries how did u do that so well ughhhh. yes sort of an underlying thing throughout this whole fic about yugyeom was his passiveness and its contrast to the remnants of bambam's idealism and active personality and what'd happened to him to make him keep it that way? cries ;A;
(a "satisfying" write omg i'm not sure if i can bring myself to but yes it sounds so intriguing cries)
(bambam comes up with an encyclopedia of reasons why it makes so much sense for him to stay with yugyeom (and why he shld totally sleep in yugyeom's bed too) and yugyeom just rolls his eyes)
(wait also i'll reply ur other comment asap cries)
(would you.... mind horribly if i wrote it? i'm not saying i will bc i have so many other unfinished fics and it'd be like very drabble-ish but it's seriously captured my mind and ofc it'd basically be a gift for you if you want it- if you're not cool with it that's fine too idk i just feel like kind of writing it aha cries i'm so rude sorrysorry)
(i don't think yugyeom's complaining too much about the whole bambam-not-leaving-not-even-his-bed thing tbh lmao)
i wOULD LOVE YOU IF U DID???? cries lol idek if it's possible but it'd be fun if someone did? (btw i hope this doesn't sound creepy af but do u happen to have an account on the twitter) cries i'm looking forward to it?? a gift for little old me ur too kind omg /fans you
(when their new friends ask them why bambam's still in yugyeom's apartment after half a year in korea yugyeom suddenly gets very interested in the sky and bambam launches into ardent conversation about the weather)
im-about-to-turn-communist omg save me i died laughing at that in public everyone was staring at me
cRIES thank you omg yes i p much scared myself writing jinyoung's character like i didn't know how far i was willing to go for him and i was thinking i went a little too far?? cries drama ;A; but yes omg i wanted people to sort of hate him and feel sorry for him at the same time (for youngjae too cries but i think that didn't get across too well) u have no idea how relieved i am that sort of was conveyed ;A; <3333
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NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THOUGH ABOUT JINYOUNG'S CHARACTER LIKE you didn't go too far, you didn't, jfc like a friend and i have a casual willprobablyneverendupbeinganactualpostedstory fic that we've name evil jjproj bc like okay initially it was jaebum being all-knowing and manipulative in a threatening kind f way (that turns into brute force and turns most of the group against him but then he starts getting their trust back with the help of jinyoung who is 'in love' with him and he's 'sweettalked' back to his side) but then the mastermind is actually jinyoung; he's the one in this that enjoys playing with people's lives, and he's manipulated jaebum into doing the work for him so well that jaebum doesn't even realise, so when it gets uncovered, naturally jaebum takes the fall (.... until this led back to the necrophilia thing last night
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omG THAT FIC SOUNDS SO EPIC OMG please like even if you don't post it on any comms or anything please post it in your lj because i would read that i so would read that omg ;A;;;;;
and the necrophilia omg XDDD it's up to your imagination how far jinyoung was involved ahehe but in the version in my head he was definitely present at the scene of the crime- he would've gotten other people to do the dirty work but he would've wanted youngjae to see his face and understand it's him before he was murdered. iDEK THAT'S HOW I SEE IT CRIES
yes it's absolutely his fault if that becomes a thing credit will not be passed out to anyone in particular
wILL U LOvE ME
HAHAHAHA omg yes thank you for coining this term let us now start a movement to make this genre universal
it starts off and i'm thinking inter-office romance with some mental games played and then i read on and on and it just kind of like. splintered into a million pieces and oh god it hurt in the pit of my belly but- strangely, out of the 'rich guys', jackson seemed like the most decent. at least he didn't try to drug or OTHERWISE POISON JAEBUM HDU someone (as far as is explored in this story anyway)
i just... I DON'T HAVE WORDS TO EXPRESS EVEYTHING I'M FEELING, EVERYTHING THIS STORY MADE ME FEEL AND THINK AND JUST. i don't have words.
at least it was a happy-ish ending. and by that i mean they got away bc dear god the rich guys are all skeevy af
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(yes jaebum is a poop here im sorry)
cries i hope all that occurred in the good way T.T /fans you/ thank you so much for this comment it gave me life cries
(skeevy rich guys thank you for the description such apt much accurate)
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omg cries yeah i put the warnings there because tbh i haven't found one longfic on lj without sex and i think it'd kind of put people off to sit through something this long without smut but cries ok (a) i can't write it to save my life and (b) i felt like i had to emphasise on the purity of their relationship? and i can't believe you caught that omg like i didn't expect anyone to see the thing with mark (i didn't want to go too deep into it because i think i'd traumatise myself ;A;) and cries yes thank you for understanding ;A; <333
(don't worry when they go back to korea bambam lives with yugyeom "out of convenience" and yeah things go along the road from there)
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(a "satisfying" write omg i'm not sure if i can bring myself to but yes it sounds so intriguing cries)
(bambam comes up with an encyclopedia of reasons why it makes so much sense for him to stay with yugyeom (and why he shld totally sleep in yugyeom's bed too) and yugyeom just rolls his eyes)
(wait also i'll reply ur other comment asap cries)
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(i don't think yugyeom's complaining too much about the whole bambam-not-leaving-not-even-his-bed thing tbh lmao)
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(when their new friends ask them why bambam's still in yugyeom's apartment after half a year in korea yugyeom suddenly gets very interested in the sky and bambam launches into ardent conversation about the weather)
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and no, it's not creepy at all, and i do, and it's chanyeolanda as well, and i'm not on very often but i do go on every now and then lmao
(but people just laugh when they see them strolling along holding hands when they think no one's around to see)
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okok /flies off to twitter
(yugbam think they're super covert but tbh all their middle-class colleagues see it straight away)
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(when/if gay marriage is legalised in korea their colleagues are like 'you guys must be happy!' abd they're like ............................)
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cRIES thank you omg yes i p much scared myself writing jinyoung's character like i didn't know how far i was willing to go for him and i was thinking i went a little too far?? cries drama ;A; but yes omg i wanted people to sort of hate him and feel sorry for him at the same time (for youngjae too cries but i think that didn't get across too well) u have no idea how relieved i am that sort of was conveyed ;A; <3333 ( ... )
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and the necrophilia omg XDDD it's up to your imagination how far jinyoung was involved ahehe but in the version in my head he was definitely present at the scene of the crime- he would've gotten other people to do the dirty work but he would've wanted youngjae to see his face and understand it's him before he was murdered. iDEK THAT'S HOW I SEE IT CRIES
yes it's absolutely his fault if that becomes a thing credit will not be passed out to anyone in particular
wILL U LOvE ME
HAHAHAHA omg yes thank you for coining this term let us now start a movement to make this genre universal
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