end-of-year summary part II
Favorite summaries:
(I’m terrible at these, so at least this list will be thankfully short)
“a hackneyed, but nonetheless rather enjoyable, tale of a forger and a point man” - you mustn’t be afraid to dream a little bigger, darling.
“the last thing that kunpimook, or bambam, as jackson calls him, anyway, needs in his life right now is someone just as clever, if not smarter, than him. but then again fear's a reassuringly double edged blade, and curiosity can kill you just as easily as it can make you fall in love.” - peripheral
“at the age of six, yugyeom subsists. bambam thrives. naturally, a friendship is born.” - chaste
“yugyeom builds worlds in the labyrinths of his mind, and dies when they do.” - and call it true love
Favorite opening line(s): again, not quite good at these, so:
“There are times when Youngjae likes to convince himself he’s past the pubescent stage of forming superficial, hormonal crushes based mostly on looks, that he’s a mature, decisive nineteen-year-old capable of making logical, sensible decisions regarding his love interests.” - just the way you are
“There are times when Mark likes to believe he’s completely over the phase of perceived angsty, hormonal teenage romance, and that he’s a mature twenty-one year old completely capable of making logical, sensible decisions regarding his love interests.” - mortal enemies (or just uncomfortable next door neighbours)
Favorite closing line(s):
“No one asks why Mark’s soles are black, or why they’re both wearing only one shoe, and Jaebum grumbles about his cold ddeokbokki, but Jinyoung pulls them both in and closes the door behind them, steering them both towards the bathroom and complaining about how cold their hands are, and out of the corner of Jackson’s eye, he sees Mark smile.” - before this goes over the edge
Favorite line(s) from anywhere:
“Two can play at this game, he thinks smugly. And maybe, if they manage their cards nice and proper, with just the right amount of fine complimentary champagne, both of them might happen to come out of it winners.” - peripheral
“Bambam’s gathered the sheets under his chin, half-burying himself in Youngjae’s blankets, and amidst thoughts like he’d better not get eyeliner on these sheets and I hope he washed his feet, dressed in white like that Youngjae can’t help but think he looks like an angel.” - when salted tears won’t dry
“Because for him, smiles are cynical, touch comes in friendly punches, and affectionate words feel like grenades between his jaws, threatening to explode within him and tear him open to reveal the massive entirety of what he feels for the younger boy, messy and raw and uncensored like it’s been ripped fresh from his heart.” - and call it true love
“Junhoe’d learned a year ago, amidst another death battle with another set of brothers in another stupid survival show, that being sorry did little for anyone. Junhoe’d learned that hard work counted for close to nothing without talent, and the same applied vice versa. The heart of the Goo Junhoe had been sandpapered down through the acidity of bitter fangirls’ words and the cold judgement of sunbaes to the bone, to the core, and the time for sympathy was long past.” - grounded
“Hayi had thought her music was a rebellion in the pop industry until she’d heard AKMU, heard the confidence behind soothing vintage blends of electronic and folk, and like the rest of the world she’d fallen in love with the sound of it under the guise of calm speculation.” - luminance
Story I haven't yet written, but intend to: the number of fics I’d have to list here is crazy T.T I do want to convert freefall into a spy au series, and sort of upload little drabbles and oneshots (and another long chaptered fic) complementary to that universe, so there’s that. I also have to finish up the grandfather paradox and I’m still contemplating how I’m going to go about finishing catharsis (yes, despite the one year drought, I haven’t given up on that fic yet T.T) There are also the numerous prompts I want to claim over at 7fics (though with the new casuals here I feel a lot less pressure to churn out fics, and I suppose this is detrimental in many ways T.T). I’m also really set on doing a jingyeom/yugbam model fic, though I have no idea how that will come to fruition :( Aside from Got7 fics, I’m also hoping to do a jinchan (B1A4) fic for TJ, and there’s a junhoe/yunhyung catboy fic that’s been sitting in my folder since forever- I already have the first part done, but I just can’t seem to get round to the rest of it ;A;
Goals for next year: Make use of the free time (aside from work) I’ll have to write more! I’m hoping to be able to finish TGP by Jan, and fill at least three prompts from now till February. Also /long suffering sigh/ if I continue talking to nini and shii, I’ll probably be writing BTS fic soon too /muttered grumbling/ like frick man vmin is so cute how idek what
Top Five Stories From 2014-15: eyyy so I’m just going to select from all the fics I’ve written under the alias hiphopbabylion, because ‘A’s really took a chunk from me this year and I wasn’t able to write enough to have a good selection of fics to choose from T.T In no particular order!!:
(1) the grandfather paradox: I’ve been having so much fun and so much stress with this so it just culminates in this mess of adrenaline and energy, and I’m happy with the progress I’ve been able to make with it so far? I can’t say much since the fic still isn’t finished, and a lot of what I want to say involves the ending XDD but this fic was really satisfying for me in a fangirl sort of way, both as an ode to the multitude of amazing video games I’ve played/watched, and in terms of the messages I found myself incorporating into the fic.
(2) peripheral: Again, another fic I loved, not because I was proud of the subject matter that it kickstarted on, but more of because this fic really helped me settle a lot? Okay, yay, great grandfather story coming along now, so feel free to skip this if you’re not looking forward to a lot of backstory XDD Long story short, I wasn’t (still am not) the richest kid in the world, but I went to a pretty fancy primary and secondary school because my mom did, and spent ten years wondering why I couldn’t afford the same things or go to the same places my friends did. Like I had a friend who gave me an Mp3, no strings attached, and that was probably the most horrible moment of my friendship with her because I couldn’t see her the same way after that- all my greedy little eleven-year-old mind wanted from her were things, and in retrospect that’s a pretty shitty thing to realise, you know? We’re still friends now but there was a part of my life where I couldn’t see the value of just being friends with her, not her landed property or her free VIP tickets to Shakespeare plays or her endless makeup supply. Now, at least, it’s pretty disgusting when I think back about it, but hey, we’re kids, I guess that’s what’s school’s for, to let us be stupid and ashamed of it when we’re grown up.
Bambam, Yugyeom and Youngjae each represented a phase in my self-proclaimed poverty- fascination, resignation and greed respectively. So far, the greed’s the only part of it I’ve tried to kill \o/
(3) mortal enemies (or just uncomfortable next door neighbours): Yep so again, this fic still kinda makes me smile when I reread it (which is usually the ultimate goal I have in mind for people who read my fics?) and I’ve heard in comments that people find it light and fun to read, which is something really important to me because, well, I’m kind of imagining people coming home from a long crappy day at work or school and needing a pick me up, and coming back to this fic for a couple of cute moments and laughs? I mean if that’s what my fics are able to do, then I’m like settled, man, I’m happy that I’m able to make other people happy ^.^ Out of all my fics, I still feel like this one has the easiest readability, and I managed to go an entire fic without a drop of angst or heavy messages, so yay! I’m just happy this fic manages to brighten anyone’s day ^.^
(4) colour crimson in my eyes: Not a fic I nominated because of cuteness or readability, obviously, ahah, but because I felt this one was important for me? Maybe it’s because I grew up in a sheltered environment, but only about five or six of the people I knew were ever seriously afflicted by eating disorders- but it was still enough to unsettle me? Call me a wuss, but seeing them like that was enough to keep me up all night for weeks worrying…? T.T Especially since I used to be really close to one of them, and for a couple of weeks I kept wondering if it’d been my fault, if I’d been able to do anything? Writing this fic made me feel like I had a little psychological victory over everything that’d happened- I guess it was just me getting my feelings and thoughts in order and finding catharsis.
(5) last but not least!!! luminance, because of all the satisfaction criteria it managed to fulfil for me- the message, the readability, the liberties I could take incorporating all my favourite members, and again, people in the comments tell me it managed to brighten their day, so I’m happy ^.^ I mean, if my fic can make a person on their way home from a shitty day at work happy, so when they get home they make their family and friends happy and the happiness (ideally) spreads from there, that’s honestly more than I can ask for XDD
So this was a long and boring review, more for me to take some time out to properly look back at this year than anything ahaha, so if you’re still here, thank you for reading so far, and I hope I didn’t bore you too much >.< Have a great Christmas and New Year guys!