Mania... Or Just Housework?
I have been on a cleaning RAMPAGE the last two days. It's like I'll get up at 6:00 a.m., take my ADHD med so I can concentrate, and then I'll clean until the ADHD med wears off and I lose concentration. And yesterday, I even cleaned a couple hours after the ADHD med wore off... After a break, of course. Joel called me "The Cleaning Nazi" today.
On the upside, the house is now ready for guests. The only room that truly needs cleaning is Joel's room, which I'm not planning to go into until he cleans. However, if this continues, I'll probably continue my rampage on Tuesday (after the garbage truck comes )and clean it while he sleeps. It should take me from 6:00-8:00 a.m. 'til 2:00-4:00 p.m. just to get rid of the trash. That room is DISGUSTING right now! I went up there for the first time in 6 months just a few weeks ago, and I couldn't even get to the bed without almost re-breaking my ankle! I told Joel that I wouldn't come upstairs and hang out with him until it's clean... Like that's going to inspire him.
He's doing better, though. Right now he's doing the dishes for the second time this week. It's only fair; I cleaned the rest of the house - including mopping the kitchen and bathroom floors - so HE should at least do the dishes.
The problem will be training ourselves to pick up our messes. We've both been sort of Type B personalities, and we need to make ourselves tidier. The house is clean; we just need to KEEP it clean. It's going to be tough.
Right now, I feel great about the house!
But the frenzied activity makes me worried. I've been barely getting 8 hours of sleep a night, and I normally need 10 or more. I've been getting up at 6:00 a.m., when before, I would FORCE myself to get up at 8:00 or 9:00. I have to force myself to go to sleep at night. I feel so energized and hyper, and that's not my normal personality. I think I might be in a manic stage right now, which makes sense, considering I broke down SEVERAL times and cried a couple of weeks ago.
I just don't want to start cycling really bad - not this close to the end of my college career. I saw Dr. Meland on Friday - before all this started - and I was lucid, but I'm not scheduled to see him again 'til the middle of July. I don't know if I should talk to him again soon or not. Truth is, by the time I finally could get in, the mania will probably already be over. I only have been at the peak of each phase for a few days at a time, even when I was cycling really slowly.
I don't want to crash from this in a couple of weeks. In a couple of weeks, I'll be entering the final days of my sojourn here at State, and I don't want to fuck it up. I've been here too long already. But hopefully, if I DO crash, I'll have less stressors than I did last time to set me off.
Maybe this Stepford Wives thing I've been experiencing will actually HELP me...
We'll have to wait and see.