argh
sometimes it is so hard to be mad at somebody in person and so easy from far away. things that are concrete in my mind suddenly melt and evaporate in person. i used to be so good at being angry in person. fuck i lost it. things are up and down. i got to go mattress shopping and apartment decorating shopping, such as candles and paintings and big squishy armchairs that was all so fun, the new apartment is fabulous, and thank god bobby and i don't live together or death might ensue. but the new mattress is amazing i fell right asleep and didn't so much as stir until the alarm in the morning, at which point i rolled over, looked at bobby, looked at the alarm clock, looked back at bobby and said "boy that thing is up early" and then went back to sleep. sometimes i am oh so retarded. in other news bobby lou and emilie are all engaged in not happiness with me, bah humbug. fuck 'em all. actually thats not true, just bobby. hehe, well never mind once every 24 hours is all my ration amounts to. apparently he thinks if its so good why would you need more, i on the other hand am greedy and feel just the opposite. damn my cursed hormones. anyway now that everyone's mad at me i'm sitting here alone drinking my sisters boyfriends girly alcohol all alone and writing on live journal. how pathetic. goodnight!