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i can't even tell you how easy it is sometimes just to lose it... break down... from the smallest things
things are so complicated in my brain, my mind is racing but my body just won't move except to do the one thing i swore i wouldn't do
no i have to stop it
seriously half an hour ago i was okay and now i'm not and i don't know fucking why, i really don't understnad it at all... maybe there's more to it than anyone realizes. i don't know what i'm talking about honestly, it's just comin gout of my head. i am not drunk or high for the first time in a week and a half and i honestly think it's fucking me up in a different way because my mind is focused way too much on shit that i thought didn't matter to me anymore
i don't know i just need to lay in bed with my eyes wide open like they are right now and think about things, and try to keep my hands from reaching to grab what is on the table next to me
i swear i'll write a more normal post when i am actually normal. right now i'm not
things are so complicated in my brain, my mind is racing but my body just won't move except to do the one thing i swore i wouldn't do
no i have to stop it
seriously half an hour ago i was okay and now i'm not and i don't know fucking why, i really don't understnad it at all... maybe there's more to it than anyone realizes. i don't know what i'm talking about honestly, it's just comin gout of my head. i am not drunk or high for the first time in a week and a half and i honestly think it's fucking me up in a different way because my mind is focused way too much on shit that i thought didn't matter to me anymore
i don't know i just need to lay in bed with my eyes wide open like they are right now and think about things, and try to keep my hands from reaching to grab what is on the table next to me
i swear i'll write a more normal post when i am actually normal. right now i'm not