A mother rant...again
so yeah gotta make this quick because the mega bitch has to use my computer (oh but wait i have no say in her using it or not).
so i got off work early today, and the moment i get home i get plastered with more work, to watch the kids. and lil' david is actin like a brat and alex is screaming. i'm trying to dress alex while daivds getting into everything, and alex refuses to stay still and will not stop stumping his feet. and its pissing me off.
mean while my parents mom + david are playing with my computer and typing up some shit that i could do in about 5 min.
cause my mother is the slowest typer ever!
and then when i am just fed up with watching them i just sit right next to them and let alex scream bloody murder until they give up. its their kids and its past 11, they need to be put to bed.
seriously i am sick and tired of my parents there is no where for me to go, I JUST WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE!
but its impossible in this house, and my one area of solitude is the garage, yes ladies and gentleman, i live in the garage where the computer keeps me busy.
but they have taken that away, because even though its mine they still can use it whenever they god damn well feel like it.
well i finnally get them off the comp. and my mom come running into the garage and starts screaming at me because i left an empty cup in my room, for christ sake let it go!
seriously i cheer when the family is gone, i do a little dance and run around the house naked. because i don't have to deal with them. you guys have no idea how good that feels.
oh and since i upset about things.
my mom come up to me the other day and says that i have to pay her gas money each month because i work. WTF she bitched and bitched about me getting a job and now shes bitching about driving me to it!!
I CAN'T WIN WITH HER!!
and then when i got credit denial, i was upset and i was in a giving up mood, and she was like "failing is not an option" so ok i can't go to NY and i can spend the rest of the summer paying back my aunt for a trip i didn't even go on!!!
and then i finnally talk to my conselor about what i can do, she says to take it next summer but i will still be considered a 1oth grader. and what does my mom do BITCH!
i got everything situated its all fine and shes still carrys on!
I CAN'T WIN EVER EVER EVER!!!
why try anymore she'll just find more and more things to complain about.
seriously she is the reason i have low self esteeme
she is the reason i hate myself
she is the reason i overly agonize about everything
she is the reason i am always afraid
she ia the reason i have such a terrible temper
and she is the reason why no one even trys to get close to me cause i just shut them out, just like she did to me.
she tells me daily i'm useless
and that i don't do shit
even though i bust my ass trying to please HER
well you know what I'M DONE
I PLEASE NO ONE BUT MY SELF!
and SHE and go shove it up her own ass!!!!!
so i got off work early today, and the moment i get home i get plastered with more work, to watch the kids. and lil' david is actin like a brat and alex is screaming. i'm trying to dress alex while daivds getting into everything, and alex refuses to stay still and will not stop stumping his feet. and its pissing me off.
mean while my parents mom + david are playing with my computer and typing up some shit that i could do in about 5 min.
cause my mother is the slowest typer ever!
and then when i am just fed up with watching them i just sit right next to them and let alex scream bloody murder until they give up. its their kids and its past 11, they need to be put to bed.
seriously i am sick and tired of my parents there is no where for me to go, I JUST WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE!
but its impossible in this house, and my one area of solitude is the garage, yes ladies and gentleman, i live in the garage where the computer keeps me busy.
but they have taken that away, because even though its mine they still can use it whenever they god damn well feel like it.
well i finnally get them off the comp. and my mom come running into the garage and starts screaming at me because i left an empty cup in my room, for christ sake let it go!
seriously i cheer when the family is gone, i do a little dance and run around the house naked. because i don't have to deal with them. you guys have no idea how good that feels.
oh and since i upset about things.
my mom come up to me the other day and says that i have to pay her gas money each month because i work. WTF she bitched and bitched about me getting a job and now shes bitching about driving me to it!!
I CAN'T WIN WITH HER!!
and then when i got credit denial, i was upset and i was in a giving up mood, and she was like "failing is not an option" so ok i can't go to NY and i can spend the rest of the summer paying back my aunt for a trip i didn't even go on!!!
and then i finnally talk to my conselor about what i can do, she says to take it next summer but i will still be considered a 1oth grader. and what does my mom do BITCH!
i got everything situated its all fine and shes still carrys on!
I CAN'T WIN EVER EVER EVER!!!
why try anymore she'll just find more and more things to complain about.
seriously she is the reason i have low self esteeme
she is the reason i hate myself
she is the reason i overly agonize about everything
she is the reason i am always afraid
she ia the reason i have such a terrible temper
and she is the reason why no one even trys to get close to me cause i just shut them out, just like she did to me.
she tells me daily i'm useless
and that i don't do shit
even though i bust my ass trying to please HER
well you know what I'M DONE
I PLEASE NO ONE BUT MY SELF!
and SHE and go shove it up her own ass!!!!!