Rewind.
Hello everyone! haha! just came back a few days ago from thailand.
and now, its back to every morning thinking of what i need to do for the day.
i miss those carefree, OTOT times at phayakkaphum phisai, kanchanaburi, bangkok. had so much fun, slacking, talking, shopping, trekking, swimming, and HTHT. I'm amazed at how we entertained ourselves during AFTERNOON NAP times, etc.
learnt alot from the trip, overcome many fears. fear of children, animals.
and also came to realise many things. and some things came clearer to me than before. done some thinking, but they are endless thoughts. I wanna do something about it, but I always feel like I cant. Want to control some things, but knowing there are things that i can't control. Realise material things in life, don't satisfy me as much as the aspects of life. Some things that I want to believe in and have faith on, but I just can't. Reality sometimes shows you otherwise. Even as people say, here we do things fast and efficient, sometimes things just get too fast that you miss alot of things. Sometimes living a simple lifestyle really gives you more time to think about life, about people around you, not just yourself. Things that you don't usually notice, suddenly came clear. one of which, I finally realised it. I finally saw it. But this is when I'm half-worn-out by it. I never knew what it was, or how it came to me. it just did. This is when i tell myself, what is meant to be is meant to be, the last thing you want to do is to lose yourself in search for something that you realise in the end you do not hold the key to.
如果你眼神能夠為我 片刻的降臨
如果你能聽到 心碎的聲音
沉默的守護著你 沉默的等奇跡
沉默的讓自己 像是空氣
大家都吃著聊著笑著 今晚多開心
最角落裡的我 笑得多合群
盤底的洋蔥像我 永遠是調味品
偷偷的看著你 偷偷的隱藏著自己
如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我 最壓抑 最深處的秘密
如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能 聽到我 看到我的全心全意
聽你說你和你的他們 曖昧的空氣
我和我的絕望 裝得很風趣
我就像一顆洋蔥 永遠是配角戲
多希望能與你 有一秒 專屬的劇情
and now, its back to every morning thinking of what i need to do for the day.
i miss those carefree, OTOT times at phayakkaphum phisai, kanchanaburi, bangkok. had so much fun, slacking, talking, shopping, trekking, swimming, and HTHT. I'm amazed at how we entertained ourselves during AFTERNOON NAP times, etc.
learnt alot from the trip, overcome many fears. fear of children, animals.
and also came to realise many things. and some things came clearer to me than before. done some thinking, but they are endless thoughts. I wanna do something about it, but I always feel like I cant. Want to control some things, but knowing there are things that i can't control. Realise material things in life, don't satisfy me as much as the aspects of life. Some things that I want to believe in and have faith on, but I just can't. Reality sometimes shows you otherwise. Even as people say, here we do things fast and efficient, sometimes things just get too fast that you miss alot of things. Sometimes living a simple lifestyle really gives you more time to think about life, about people around you, not just yourself. Things that you don't usually notice, suddenly came clear. one of which, I finally realised it. I finally saw it. But this is when I'm half-worn-out by it. I never knew what it was, or how it came to me. it just did. This is when i tell myself, what is meant to be is meant to be, the last thing you want to do is to lose yourself in search for something that you realise in the end you do not hold the key to.
如果你眼神能夠為我 片刻的降臨
如果你能聽到 心碎的聲音
沉默的守護著你 沉默的等奇跡
沉默的讓自己 像是空氣
大家都吃著聊著笑著 今晚多開心
最角落裡的我 笑得多合群
盤底的洋蔥像我 永遠是調味品
偷偷的看著你 偷偷的隱藏著自己
如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我 最壓抑 最深處的秘密
如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能 聽到我 看到我的全心全意
聽你說你和你的他們 曖昧的空氣
我和我的絕望 裝得很風趣
我就像一顆洋蔥 永遠是配角戲
多希望能與你 有一秒 專屬的劇情