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Just watched a video-tape from me when I was 3-5 years old. It's absurd seeing how things used to be. My beautiful mother smiling at the camera. She was so stunning. Wish I would look more like her.. It's weird looking at me with my thick curly blond hair having a blast on the beach. Then there's my father..I can see his drinking habits even in the video. But he was much better at the time this video was taken, not quite the wreck he was about to become even though he was a drunken asswhole even back than. At the end you can see me and my 1 year old sister playing at the mountain. She was the cutest thing. If only we weren't exposed to the things later on..we would have been fine. But nobody did protect us. Even our own mother failed to do so. I just wish things would have turned out differently for us..I really do.