SCA Wishes
Or wonderings... or frustrations... or dilemma. I want to be so much more involved than I really have time for right now. I want my family and the SCA - and my SCA family - to be my priorities. Right now they are unfortunately needing to play second to school and work. Mundanely, I need to determine what my work goals are so that I can determine just how much more school is needed. That is a whole nother dilemma.
At the same time, I am trying to figure out where I want my focus to be within the SCA. I want to have one or maybe two areas to focus on - research them and become truly knowlegable about them, start to develop a persona and not just a name, etc. I want to be able to set furthuring goals for myself. Trouble is, there are so many options, how to decide? There is Bardic, and C&I - I don't think I will give up either of these but I also don't think either will really be my main focus. Then there's the idea of double-duty research into herbalism or Celtic studies, contributing towards intrests in both the SCA and my own spirituality. This could potentially result in some major changes to my persona, maybe even becoming a sort of wisewoman persona. Even if the typical image traditionally is an older woman... Alienor suggested looking more towards Gaelic rather than Celtic, keeping the French aspect of my persona. Or arranging parentage to get both sides. Not sure how I feel about that - I've generally leaned more towards the Irish / Celtic aspects but the French / Gaelic has some appeal as well.
My biggest dilemma at the moment is I really don't know how to even begin sorting any of this out, where to begin any type of research or projects into any of these topics, where to begin at all. It's a frustrating feeling.
At the same time, I am trying to figure out where I want my focus to be within the SCA. I want to have one or maybe two areas to focus on - research them and become truly knowlegable about them, start to develop a persona and not just a name, etc. I want to be able to set furthuring goals for myself. Trouble is, there are so many options, how to decide? There is Bardic, and C&I - I don't think I will give up either of these but I also don't think either will really be my main focus. Then there's the idea of double-duty research into herbalism or Celtic studies, contributing towards intrests in both the SCA and my own spirituality. This could potentially result in some major changes to my persona, maybe even becoming a sort of wisewoman persona. Even if the typical image traditionally is an older woman... Alienor suggested looking more towards Gaelic rather than Celtic, keeping the French aspect of my persona. Or arranging parentage to get both sides. Not sure how I feel about that - I've generally leaned more towards the Irish / Celtic aspects but the French / Gaelic has some appeal as well.
My biggest dilemma at the moment is I really don't know how to even begin sorting any of this out, where to begin any type of research or projects into any of these topics, where to begin at all. It's a frustrating feeling.