Comments | sylverling: in which my life fell apart.

sylverling

in which my life fell apart.

Dec 06, 2012 13:50

I haven't been posting here and I should. I've been posting to Open Diary instead, because in the temp job I had 2009-2010, LJ was blocked but OD wasn't, so I got in the habit of writing there and somehow I can't ever quite bring myself to cross-post. But I should, because I love you guys ( Read more... )

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cislyn December 6 2012, 21:06:17 UTC

*hugs*

"Fuck you, buddy" indeed. You are indeed, pretty okay. That there is an understatement. I'm glad you're getting clear of this, and I think that we should have some kind of new beginnings party for when you're finally and completely done with that chapter of your life.

sylverling December 6 2012, 21:15:07 UTC

I totally intend to. :-)

lucyrachel December 7 2012, 01:50:20 UTC

Agreed that "pretty okay" is an understatement. Polly, you are strong and you are amazing. I didn't know most of this story, though I got a very vague gist from things I saw on fetlife and Facebook. I am so sorry you are going through this, and I am so in awe of your strength in finding your way to a safe place. I've been thinking of you a lot. By the way, I unfriended C on fetlife a while back. I almost never unfriend anyone anywhere, so I am telling you this because it indicates how strongly I feel about you and your position in this horrible situation.

"I miss what we were supposed to have" - this is a difficult loss. I'm dealing with something along these lines myself right now. Much sympathy.

Also, hi, Cislyn - we've met a few times via safiiru. :) I think I had figured out that you also knew Polly, but didn't figure out a way to bring it up.

sylverling December 7 2012, 17:37:54 UTC

I kept a lot of it off Facebook, in part because the legal stuff is not done yet, and deactivated my Fet account - it's still there, and I'll put it back one of these days, but I've needed some space. A couple of very good friends in the community did a lot to help me get through the summer, and many people have taken the time to contact me, ask what's going on (because nobody believes the shit he writes), and ask how I'm doing. It's been a really, really good thing ( ... )

forestdweller December 7 2012, 01:30:49 UTC

Holy gods.

*Hugs you tight*

sylverling December 7 2012, 17:38:09 UTC

Thanks.

flutastic December 7 2012, 15:54:44 UTC

Psst. I love you, Polly. You did the right thing. All of it. Don't ever second-guess your actions, okay? Because you got out. When we're in a thing, it's hard to see stuff for what it is. *hugs*

sylverling December 7 2012, 17:33:40 UTC

Thanks. I don't second-guess it. I wish I'd gotten out sooner and not gone back, is all, but I knew I wasn't quite ready the first time. I had to know I had done everything I possibly could to save it before I could go.

I keep thinking about how awful this year has been for so many people. But if I could go back and start it again and change things, I don't think I would. I'm in such a better place now. Most days, I feel pretty damn good.